Sunday, October 22, 2006
came back from sailing camp. and so much things happened within this short few days. i dunno how am i going to face it all. i feel so shag. lost energy within the few seconds.
maybe it happened while i was still happily playing out in the sea. or maybe it was when i was soundly asleeep in the middle of the night. i dunno. and i very much wan to noe the reason why. but no one noes. no one in the family noes too. all of them were soundly asleeep too. i dun wan and i dun wish it to be the truth of wad our guess is. for i noe the consequences of noeing the truth. hatred will form and every thing isnt gonna be the same anymore. i missed her so much. i dun wan her to leave. the amount of tears i shed for her today is never gonna be enough. to cure anything. to make anything change or make her come back alive. i dint even get to see her the one last time. no one saw her leave. and i, did not even see her for the very last time.
promise me u will be my dog again the next life. i miss u so much. if only i treated u better. if only i treasured u alot when u are still here. but. now that u are gone, we'll take good care of ur pups. goodbye.. my dearest dogg. =(
today must be the worse day of my life. i cut my leg when kayaking. and i kicked the stairs and my toe bleed so much. and it hurts. my eyes are swollen and red. my family. upside down. everything is not on the right track of my life. why is all this happening? =((
maybe it happened while i was still happily playing out in the sea. or maybe it was when i was soundly asleeep in the middle of the night. i dunno. and i very much wan to noe the reason why. but no one noes. no one in the family noes too. all of them were soundly asleeep too. i dun wan and i dun wish it to be the truth of wad our guess is. for i noe the consequences of noeing the truth. hatred will form and every thing isnt gonna be the same anymore. i missed her so much. i dun wan her to leave. the amount of tears i shed for her today is never gonna be enough. to cure anything. to make anything change or make her come back alive. i dint even get to see her the one last time. no one saw her leave. and i, did not even see her for the very last time.
promise me u will be my dog again the next life. i miss u so much. if only i treated u better. if only i treasured u alot when u are still here. but. now that u are gone, we'll take good care of ur pups. goodbye.. my dearest dogg. =(
today must be the worse day of my life. i cut my leg when kayaking. and i kicked the stairs and my toe bleed so much. and it hurts. my eyes are swollen and red. my family. upside down. everything is not on the right track of my life. why is all this happening? =((
what we could have been, 9:10 PM.
