Sunday, November 26, 2006
everything jus seems to be wrong. so wrong. ESPECIALLY today. cut myself on my finger, cut myself on my knee, dry food dust hit into my eye, and all the bad things happen..
and i guess this is one of those days of the year that i have to break down and let everything go.. tap water is running and i cant stop it. i jus wanna cry UGLY-ly. (oh. its the dust dat make me cry. ya rite.)
spending makes me feel so much better. i spent on some things today. and i spent 2 hours walking in jp alone. i walked past the shop at basement. and its the first time i dun feel any excitement. i bought a photoframe which i HAD NEVERin my life BOUGHT one before. i bought flowers for my mum. FOR NO REASON. jus feel like it. and of cus. she scolded me for wasting my money. no. her money. i bought tissues. for wad? dunno. i bought chocolates for my dog. and i feel like eating them too.
i wish time can slow down.. so dat i can move slower.. but i wish time can fast forward too.. so i wont get hurt. the pain is starting to come. and is unbearable. tell me, jus wad to do now. @$#@^%$&$#@#! screw my brain, screw my life. i wish time can go back to 10th september. when it haven began.
rain or not to rain. u decide.
and i guess this is one of those days of the year that i have to break down and let everything go.. tap water is running and i cant stop it. i jus wanna cry UGLY-ly. (oh. its the dust dat make me cry. ya rite.)
spending makes me feel so much better. i spent on some things today. and i spent 2 hours walking in jp alone. i walked past the shop at basement. and its the first time i dun feel any excitement. i bought a photoframe which i HAD NEVERin my life BOUGHT one before. i bought flowers for my mum. FOR NO REASON. jus feel like it. and of cus. she scolded me for wasting my money. no. her money. i bought tissues. for wad? dunno. i bought chocolates for my dog. and i feel like eating them too.
i wish time can slow down.. so dat i can move slower.. but i wish time can fast forward too.. so i wont get hurt. the pain is starting to come. and is unbearable. tell me, jus wad to do now. @$#@^%$&$#@#! screw my brain, screw my life. i wish time can go back to 10th september. when it haven began.
rain or not to rain. u decide.
what we could have been, 11:33 PM.
