Monday, December 04, 2006

have the feeling to blog emo-ly now~ perhaps i jus need to say it out. i dunno if the past makes alot of different in what i am today. i am affected by my past. i am affected by what my past made me today. i feel myself being so slutty and i dunno why. dunno if 'dirty' is the correct word to use but i cant find any other words. nope. i dint do anything 'wrong' to that extend. jus feel so heavy. so heavy that i cant stand up straight. each move is hunch backed. i've decided not to make the move to do things now. i dun wan to be making the move. but at times, its within my control. for this, slap me. wash my brain for goodness sake. BAHHHH. i wan a new life.. a NEW one. new memories, no past. CAN OR NOT? god, help me. bzzt.

i am feeeling very bad~ i guess this is one of the reason why i feeel so slutty? damn. i dint do anything wrong! (*&^%$#@!~ why shld i feel this way? kns.

what we could have been, 11:41 PM.