Monday, November 12, 2007
sometimes i really hate myself. to be in such a state. im caught up by so much problems. and things happen too suddenly for me to even react to them.
firstly, i hate school. i hate having to rush for assignments everyday. im sick of video. im sick of audio. im sick of ANIMATION. im sick of every thing in SP. im sick of having to do this assignment and upon completing one, the other comes in. im sick of hearing the dead lines. im sick of looking at so many words. fcuk. i hate school.
secondly, i hate the idea of having financial problems cos i cant work. i hate having to worry abt money all day long. i hate i hate i hate. i wish i could take up a job dat pays up to 5000 a month.(im dreaming.)
thirdly, im back to ground one. i wish i did not said dat. i wish i did not noe it. i wish all in all. everything will not come to me again. but it all came back here. although there isnt any decision to make, although i dun have much choice also, i dunno wad am i troubling abt. ive been day dreaming all day long. and surprisingly, i still dropped abit ytd. i need to cool myself down and think. i need alot of thinking space. i need alot of time. time waits for no one. and this is wad i got to learn 2 years back. the time is not mine. i need to keep running with it too. i cant stop at any point. sighs. this is too tiring.
lastly, focus music. actually i detest the idea of having to come up with talent performances, and the idea of having to prepare a speech, imagining u are a new artiste in singapore going to taiwan and introducing singapore, introducing a book and things like dat. i really dunno wad im gonna do for it and im tired of such things.. roar.
i need my beauty sleeep.
firstly, i hate school. i hate having to rush for assignments everyday. im sick of video. im sick of audio. im sick of ANIMATION. im sick of every thing in SP. im sick of having to do this assignment and upon completing one, the other comes in. im sick of hearing the dead lines. im sick of looking at so many words. fcuk. i hate school.
secondly, i hate the idea of having financial problems cos i cant work. i hate having to worry abt money all day long. i hate i hate i hate. i wish i could take up a job dat pays up to 5000 a month.(im dreaming.)
thirdly, im back to ground one. i wish i did not said dat. i wish i did not noe it. i wish all in all. everything will not come to me again. but it all came back here. although there isnt any decision to make, although i dun have much choice also, i dunno wad am i troubling abt. ive been day dreaming all day long. and surprisingly, i still dropped abit ytd. i need to cool myself down and think. i need alot of thinking space. i need alot of time. time waits for no one. and this is wad i got to learn 2 years back. the time is not mine. i need to keep running with it too. i cant stop at any point. sighs. this is too tiring.
lastly, focus music. actually i detest the idea of having to come up with talent performances, and the idea of having to prepare a speech, imagining u are a new artiste in singapore going to taiwan and introducing singapore, introducing a book and things like dat. i really dunno wad im gonna do for it and im tired of such things.. roar.
i need my beauty sleeep.
what we could have been, 2:02 AM.
