Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i wan to be smiling everyday..
i wan to live without worries.
i wan to be a happy gurl.
i wan all my frens to be happy.
i wan to make all of them happy.ah fuck. i wan my bloody jacket. MY JACKET LAH! rfewj grfd gt fh y6jh uytj kuy k yj h sf eadc asc wr te b th rr yhbe rtgc we fwv btyr ntuyrv g tetg twc xde wt w4yv wgv r rge vf werf ^%$#@ # @%^%&^%$ ^@ ! #$^%$^ %% $ @ @$#! %%&^& %^*&(*^ $#
what we could have been, 10:58 PM.
i wan my fcuking jacket.................... =(
why are things jus going the wrong way recently? damn. i feeeel so bloody down can. dun think i am always emo. (but anyway cannot blame. i am a gemini. CUM cancer.) my bday gift~ lost. fcuk. damn sad can. working environment. not dat bad. perhaps jus stressed. but seeing the dogs there makes a bit of my day. i hate the size of the shop. so small. want to find thing do also hard.
FOE today. response was uber good dat arnd 140+ campers signed up + paid for FOC. its a great amt. expected was like 80 only. this year got DBIT in with us too. and this batch ppl. very on. camp's coming and i hope it helps me in.. ya. relaxing myself.
my ipod video isnt working and i am so sad + angry~ arghs. its the cause of my bloody laptop. and i dunno wad is exactly wrong with it! always got problem! maybe i shld send it for formatting and upgrading. or maybe i shld jus buy a new com. finance pls come.
anyone seen the orange adidas jacket selling anywhere pls let me noe. thanks.
what we could have been, 12:54 AM.
finally.. SMIT ADD 0607 is over.. as much i dun really like the planning and organising part, now the same feeling goes to ending this event. hahs. like so fast jiu end le. abit sad. =x well, the event was kinda okie.. the food was nice. at least for the muslim food. i dunno abt the chinese food though. hahs. dint win the lucky draw but drk won 2 la! wa lao. my ipod video.... sobx. and i am jus one number away from drk can! argh. haha.
anyway. i think i look fat ytd. x= and i noe i have always been. hah.the dressing was kinda wrong ytd anyway. hahas. =x nothing else to wear liao and i also nv go and specially prepare. so nvm lor. =p next year den really go prepare~ hahs.
today's work time pass so slow and i feeeeel so tired. = / anyway. after work supposedly me zw ping zhijie qun joey jeremy going for movie one. but due to reasons in the end only left me zw and joey. before movie begins, we played arcade! haha. fun. tire myself out. watched TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLE! at first tot this show kinda lame. lol. but woo. not bad. LEONARDO! and the orange one is called wad uh? forgot. i remember when i was young i have the blue colour thing. of leonardo one! wahahaha. dunno where is it le. = / hahas. shuai~ =xwang ji ni wo zuo bu dao~
what we could have been, 1:59 AM.
been working so much lately. so much so dat i feeel i neglected my friends. = / sorry all.. enjoying work lately. dunno why. maybe because.. not much stress. haha. if only can feel this way everytime. jiu hao le. perhaps its the status of supervisor dat stressed me. ya maybe she is even more stressed than us. =) i can understand. hahas. so i jus have to work hard only lor! still in the process of learning.. i am slow yes i noe. hahas. =p
gonna be so busy alr. see my list of activities. hahas.18th - working 1 - 10pm19th - working at TB 1 - 9pm20th - FOS21st -FOS22nd - working23rd - SMIT ADD o6o724th - SLACK DAY25th - SLACK DAY26th - TB27th - enrolment for newbies28th - working 29th - SLACK DAY30th - prep camp31st - prep camp
SEE!!!! there goes my MARCH! ARGH. -.-
what we could have been, 2:21 AM.
emo emo emo. i am always lidat. and ya. i always cry. = / tml will be working. but i cant seem to sleep. no matter how tired i may be. ahhhh. i am thinking alot. really alot. sighs. i wish i can work everyday so as to keep myself busy. busy from thinking. busy and to forget. everything. no. maybe the bad ones only. great. i am so gonna be busy so soon. FOC FOE FOP and everything regarding FO, going genting maybe, and more and more work. i wan to enjoy work everyday. its so stress sometimes at work when i see all of them having things to do when i have nothing to do. i wish i noe wad to do. i wish i had a list of things for me to do. i hate going arnd and doing nothing. ok nvm. i shall find things to do.
i grew up too late..
what we could have been, 2:24 AM.
bored holidays! lucky i got work. hahs.
anyway. today went with my mum, big aunt, 4th aunt, 6th aunt, smallest aunt, my cousins steffi, chrismeen and steffi to lot 1 and eat suki sushi. hahs. buffet session and its such a waste of money for me to go. my mum ask me pay money myself lor! sian~ lol. $19.90 leh. and i dunno eat how much only. -.- nvm la. long time once. hahs. den the younger ones left first. leaving the old ones there to continue eating. they sure can eat. we went to arcade and kinda surprised. jasmine noes how to play para para. hah. see her play very long~ kept wanting to play. hahas. hmm. den me and steffi played daytona! makes me excited. chrismeen was in her sch uniform but wore my jacket. haha. so wont kana catch. aiyas. den jus went to walked arnd and they loaned vcds. saw the fast an the furiousand asked jeremy if he has it. i forgot wad he have le but gonna lend from him wadever he has anyway. hahas.
watched i'm a cyborg but thats ok! with lang jus now! RAIN is jus so cute can. lol. cant stand. although its kinda lame show. but its kinda nice also la. lol. ppl who love rain shld watch and ppl who wana have a laugh shld consider watching. lol. =D rain rain~
tml is another boring day. lol. nothing to do leh. but i going to amk hub to bloody repair my watch. sher is going with me! hahas. i wanna shop i wanna spend money. waiting for my pay to be banked in. tml will get le! =D wee. hahas.
what we could have been, 10:44 PM.
upsetupsetupset. i dunno wad for. dun ask me y. just let me rant. i dunno wads wrong. but i guess it all always comes from the same reason. the reason that will always remain there. i noe i cant blame anything. but that doesnt mean everything done is right. refrained u from hitting a small thing and allowing u to hit me. yes. mad as i may be. i dun care. it pains my heart to see both sides suffering. i took it up and now my back gave birth to new strokes. its been years since i last seen one. looking into the mirror, i cried. i felt the pain. i did not hide. i did not stop her. let her be. for, i know u have nothing to relieve ur stress on. i am not that wei da. i am not being proud of wad i have done. i did this jus because i noe and i understand.
what we could have been, 10:22 PM.
back from chalet chalet chalet~ we slept so much in this chalet can. haha. actually not much. but we dun get tired when its alr like 5am or so. hahs. well, we played PS, which lang brought. keep playing playing playing until rot ah. lol. but kinda fun la. we only went out to eat, play arcade and do a bit of shopping. den we got play LOR-boo, lol. MAHJONGcards, and alot of games la. kinda lame but fun. lol. alright. i am not sick le lahs. and its like within a few hours that i can recover. -.- i still ate laksa kfc ice cream all these. but i dint gain weight. i lost weight cos of fever! lol. =p
alright.. damn it. my BTT is like still so long~ MAY leh. sian lor. still got 2 months. rot ah. den expire in august i think. think i will get it in august? OF CUS NOT. confirm mus extend one. hahs. i wan to get my licence fast! x_X
fish is in msia now~ faster come back lehs............... my pond no fish. lol.
anyway. i haven been spending money~ and i feel like. lol. =x dunno wad to spend on though. =x dun anyhow spend. hahas. =p AH!!! tml is results day! im scared. = / wish me luck! =Di still think of u.
what we could have been, 9:48 PM.
sick sick sick~ was feeling uber bad ytd. flu and sore throat.. but i still went to work at 6pm.. den left abit earlier to buy some throat remedy to drink and eat. den go home rest.. chatted on phone with ama jia lang pang abt tml de things. den after hang up, i noticed i have got fever. lol. den slept in brother's room without aircon. dint even on the fan and i feel super cold. measured my temp and its 39.1 when morning comes. my eyes are super swollen too. den went to see doc and my temp at the clinic was 39.7 haha. how high. = / den come home eat med i slept for an hour.. wake up, 37.5 degrees. drop so fast one. hahas. den now~ i going chalet le. =x
what we could have been, 4:26 PM.
tired tired tired. hahas. came back from MIT chalet on 1st march. chalet was kinda okie~ the destination's so far from any 'nice' place. haha. transport to tampines mall takes abt 30 minutes. and thats the NEAREST mall we can get to. first day of chalet was bbq night and a bit of games and gambling. i dint eat much of the food. dunno why jus no appetite. hahs. we gambled abit at first is using alcohol. chivas. den i tio drinking lor. kinda suay. hah. dengambled with money. lost abit also. hahas. it was midnight all of us dint notice the time till 5 or 6am.. slept from 6 plus till 1pm dat day. and wake up, again nothing to do.. den called for mc delivery. poor driver got to take cab down. first time i see mc being delivered in BOXES. lol. had our lunch den slacked abit they started gambling again. being without cash, i dint play and jus watched tv! hana kimi! WEE. hahahaha. den went out with fish pang ball and jon. sent jon out and we went tm for awhile before going back lor. played games again and this time round, we DINT sleeep at all. stayed awake all the way till check out. hahas. still ok not that tired. slept on train though. XD
guess wad. i slept from 3pm to 10pm when i got home. and i woke up with severe headache and abit of fever. continued to sleeep till next morning and i went to work with big headache. = / goodness. cant stand lor. haha. i hope tml's time pass as fast as how it did today. except that i dun wan to meet that bloody customer. i gave my own $3 for her. jus cos of i dint give her discount. like wth.
what we could have been, 1:42 AM.