Thursday, April 03, 2008

nearly a month since i last blogged.. actually ive logged in alot of times. but i always neglect it. and end up not updating anything. maybe i shld have paid more attention to it.. maybe i shld have widen my point of view. ive never been this numb before.. probably this is even more numb than the pain on my legs. (p.s. i always get blisters when i wear covered shoes. but wad to do. i need to wear one to music school! XD) actually the feeling of loitering arnd isnt as great as wad i tot it was. it feels so lonely. so lost. there isnt any aim as to wad to do. that is probably why i hate to make decisions last minute too. especially in a rush and when i dun have the mood to. so whenever i tot of places i wan to go, i will go. probably alone or not. the next place i wan to head to is the changi airport terminal 3. i regret not going there when i sent nelson off at terminal 1 dat day. ugh. shld have really went! but i doubt i will get to go so soon.. work is making my head spin.. and many things dat i need to put into consideration.. its hard. the second place i wish i could go is overseas. anywhere. jus out of singapore. i miss the genting trip i went the other time. with my colleagues. although there isnt anything to do. but the feeling is jus so great. relaxed.

u asked for time.. i give it to u.. u explained to me.. i accept the reason.. u ask of me.. i ask in return, does it really matter?

what we could have been, 11:38 PM.