Tuesday, May 27, 2008

i don't know why do i feel so tired. both mentally and physically. i am supposed to feel carefree and happy. but somehow. i did not. it's not because of the separation. but because of something else. i hate myself for doing or feeling what actually happened a year ago. the craziness was over. thank god i got over it at that time. and. can anyone tell me why does it come back again now? and repeat whatever had happened back then? i just want to be a very good friend. your confidant. nothing else. it will be more than enough already. but anyway i guess this won't happen at all because it's just so not meant to be. just so to let you know that no matter what, anytime, anywhere, when your world turns into darkness, i will still be there. but i strongly believe that you world will always be bright. =) take care my friend. =))

and to all my friends out there, my loves.. do not worry about a thing for there will always be brightness in your life.. you know why? because.. with me around, there is always light. HAHA. =x

and! to AMA + gang & CY + gang! when is the chalet huh! i've been waiting till my hair all turn white, teeth all drop, skin all crumpled, eye bags all saggy, ear lops long long, eyes half closed, back 90 degrees hunched, finger nails kp short, bones all protruding! (HAHA.) are we going to have an old ladies party? lol.

alrights. anyway. its been really so long.. since.. err. last monday? i've been sick since then! it is already ONE WEEK! i miss singing sooooooooooo much! ROAR!

i went to fish's 'aquarium' to stay yesterday.. before that we caught the show, made of honour. man. its such a niceeeee show.. aww. i love it. we decided to watch this show on a last minute basis. becasue.. the tickets were bought at 9.45pm when the show is at 10.05pm. hah. and anyway the stayover was nice as it's been soooo long since i stayed over at a friend's house.. and the feeling is so relaxed and warm. haha! (p.s we slept together on the same bed! HAHA. okie.. sounds so wrong.) and ama! when is ur turn coming?? HAHA.

ive missed the charity show yesterday night.. but i heard from andon that it's very sad.. sighs. and my hp couldnt make any 1900 phone calls. damn it. luckily i can still call at home.. = / seriously i feel so sad for those people who lost their live in this earth quake.. and ifeel even more sad for the thousands of children who lost their family.. we really could not feel what they feel and they have to go through such things when they are still in a young age.. and to think that some china people who is currently in singapore can still be saying things that are so heartless. i mean. they are all from the same country.. don't they feel sad at all? and to those people in china, do not give up hope.. jiayou.. live strong..

give me one reason. just one reason. to forget.

what we could have been, 12:41 AM.