Saturday, May 03, 2008
im TIRED!
& mcnuggets. can anyone explain to me why is the money not here yet??? its 2 months plus alr! omg. if im in need of money, i'll probably jus die there alr.. hah. i wish i could go on a holiday! so sad i cant go with fishie if not i'll be damn happy. sighs. and its such a relaxed place to go to! alright.. the most that i can do now is only to plan the MIT chalet. which now, seems so hard to happen. everyone can only make it on weekends.. and if held on weekdays, all can only come at night. some even going overseas.. see how hard it is? haha.
anyway.. we are back to studio singing once again! all cos of the preparation of the final exams dat we will be going through in like 6 or 7 weeks time! it feels kinda scary. but our seniors say its easy. we shall see about it.. maybe cos im slightly more stupid.. so.. might find it hard. hah. and.. im beginning to detest my voice.. cos.. like wad they say, laoshi tried to change my voice, tried to change my style, but im always the same. but i jus dunno how to change. easier said than done.. haiz. makes me lose my confidence in singing and the morale too. haha. =x 1 month plus left! JIAYOU!
i hate it when it all comes to this happening once again. where is the understanding. im numb. so much more numb than the other time. withdrawn is the word i used the other time round. i tried to make myself step forward again. yes. i did. and i really tried. damn it. and poof. it happens again. im super sick. please tell me im thinking too much, and its not wad u really meant. sarcastism. u said dun say and den last minute say cannot. so confirm alr den tell u. dats basically the reason why i dint tell u. cos u say u dun wan to feel disappointed. 'set aside time for me. not squeeze me in it. do u understand. bye.' i guess i will never forget this line. '..phone low batt i still can call.. amazing..' the things i get is enuff for me to neglect my phone. and my phone is still a few days away to a new bill. damn it. and my sms is over 1400+. outgoing calls is over by hours. hello. come on. can someone pls have some heart and call me. flooding me with tons of sms asking me to reply is not gonna help..
& mcnuggets. can anyone explain to me why is the money not here yet??? its 2 months plus alr! omg. if im in need of money, i'll probably jus die there alr.. hah. i wish i could go on a holiday! so sad i cant go with fishie if not i'll be damn happy. sighs. and its such a relaxed place to go to! alright.. the most that i can do now is only to plan the MIT chalet. which now, seems so hard to happen. everyone can only make it on weekends.. and if held on weekdays, all can only come at night. some even going overseas.. see how hard it is? haha.
anyway.. we are back to studio singing once again! all cos of the preparation of the final exams dat we will be going through in like 6 or 7 weeks time! it feels kinda scary. but our seniors say its easy. we shall see about it.. maybe cos im slightly more stupid.. so.. might find it hard. hah. and.. im beginning to detest my voice.. cos.. like wad they say, laoshi tried to change my voice, tried to change my style, but im always the same. but i jus dunno how to change. easier said than done.. haiz. makes me lose my confidence in singing and the morale too. haha. =x 1 month plus left! JIAYOU!
i hate it when it all comes to this happening once again. where is the understanding. im numb. so much more numb than the other time. withdrawn is the word i used the other time round. i tried to make myself step forward again. yes. i did. and i really tried. damn it. and poof. it happens again. im super sick. please tell me im thinking too much, and its not wad u really meant. sarcastism. u said dun say and den last minute say cannot. so confirm alr den tell u. dats basically the reason why i dint tell u. cos u say u dun wan to feel disappointed. 'set aside time for me. not squeeze me in it. do u understand. bye.' i guess i will never forget this line. '..phone low batt i still can call.. amazing..' the things i get is enuff for me to neglect my phone. and my phone is still a few days away to a new bill. damn it. and my sms is over 1400+. outgoing calls is over by hours. hello. come on. can someone pls have some heart and call me. flooding me with tons of sms asking me to reply is not gonna help..
what we could have been, 3:06 AM.
