Sunday, July 20, 2008

it's a cold cold night tonight. im all alone at home now. everyone bluff me! haha. my sister said she is coming home tonight which i find it very weird cos every friday and saturday she is always out. and not back. and then my parents and brother went for my cousin's 21st birthday party. my mum said she is coming back but my dad might not be coming back. and end up.. no one came back at all. haha.

its surprising how i come to feel im really getting older and older. one by one my friends are getting married.. haha. people of my age.. getting married! so sweet. haha. makes me feel old. although i feel i have not played enough. and have not seen enough too. i am missing someone. someone i shld not even be missing. haha. but i'd rather be happy than to be sad. so i continue on. at least. all these memories are happy ones.

i think im really abnormal now. i've been feeling giddy the whole afternn plus night. out of sudden. and i wish there was a bed jus next to me all the time. so i dont have to control myself. can just fall anytime. =x but of cos i'd rather not fall at all. sighs.

what we could have been, 3:23 AM.