Monday, August 04, 2008

i dont know what should i blog about but i just have the urge to blog. talking to myself here everyday is making me crazy. one day. haha. today's ms.. and we were supposed to submit our song to laoshi.. i think my song sucks. basically its so weird. and i sang it. so it totally suck. ya. sighs. i though today was going to be my last lesson. but i guess not.. not leaving gives me headache and leaving gives me heartache.. which is better? having a headache ot heartache? laoshi said i could pay school fees at a later time when i have enough money to.. i dont have to worry about the finance part.. at least for now.. hai.

why do bad things have to happen and why does all these spoil the rest of the things? its sad to hear that all the things done in the past did not make a difference and is not a big deal at all. and its sad to know all this have to come to this situation and end. i cant choose the things i want and i cant choose the story line. i guess this is all part of life and ive got to learn to accept it. but why is my life so miserable. but first things first, why do i even have to be bothered by other people's thoughts? i think the answer is all these makes me a me.

ffffff! i blooody hell need to think. i want to catch up with my poly mates. i want to feel in school once again! just one last time! i miss sp life.. =(

what we could have been, 1:52 AM.