qiiuu de bloggg

2009-10-22T00:31:00.001+08:00

ive suddenly decided to come to blogger! once again!! i love livejournal for its functions, but i love blogger for its designs! haha. maybe its just a 3 min randomness. =p

2009-06-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

sighs. =(

2009-06-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

okie! no more phone! hahahaha. nvm! shall wait for next time.. =)

2 days of off days make me feel like as though i've not been working for months. HAAH. tmr is back to work day. sighs. seriously dont feel like going back. =(

2009-06-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

it totally is such a cool june holidays! although it isnt holidays for me. =( but at least im going on a short holiday! YEAH! i seriously miss school so much. working just isnt my cup of tea. but i know i ve gotta grow up one day. HAHAHA.

i gonna get a new phone at 0 dollar!!!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!! i cant wait man! although im gonna miss my old phone but im so gonna love my new phone! wanted to get samsung omnia, but it doesnt support chinese! thats one thing im troubled with cos quite a few of my contact lists ppl uses chinese to text.. so its okie.. to save money, i chose s.e w705! hopefully i can get it!

and anyway.. coming tuesday wednesday and thursday i will be alone in tien hsia.. why? because there are no lessons, no teachers will be coming, not students of course, and admin staff? on leave. and im all alone. but still. theres loads of things to be done. im gonna be so damn bored. gotta bring CDs to play there. the radio reception sucks over there.

counting down, 9 more days to bintan. =D hooooray!

2009-05-31T23:49:00.003+08:00

yes. this is wad i do when i get bored during work. too tired. HAHAHA.

can u see the rainbow that is just above the traffic light? it brightened up my dull morning!

and its a bloody morning. screw the stupid metal stand. my whole skin to my toe came off!

when it just bled.. the skin is still on it..

after i peel off the skin 2 days later.. WAHHAHA. disgusting.

this is my master piece in tien hsia! my 3d coconut tree without coconuts! lol. not yet finished. HAHA.

with the sun i drew and cut! lol.

this aunty is super cool. i think she own's this bus. maybe. and maybe its so sunny in the night. =) she still scolded the indian guy who sat there. HAHAHA.

2009-05-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

left work early today and went to see a doctor. out of sudden my eyes got so swollen while i was working. it was so disgusting. i forgot to bring my company card out and so i had to pay for my medical fees myself. but its okie. i got the day off. which is good. till now its still a little swollen. but not as bad as just now.

tmr is another working day. and im really so reluctant to go to work. =( i cant wait till my next off day. which is actually coming soon. hahaha. this sundayyyyyyyyyyyyy! weeeee! and monday i will be meeting fishy! and tuesday maybe with the girls! and wednesday with holiday friends! YEAH! and then finally.. 9th! bintan trip! weeeee! and then! my bday! ahahhaha.

2009-05-25T14:53:00.002+08:00

today is another off day! and yesterday is a tiring day! i dont know if its miscommunication or what. but end up theres only me and xl working. the amount of work load. can kill. we were busy from 9am to 6.30pm. and i still have to wait for this mother who practically cheated me of my time and feelings. waited for so long end up she did not turn up at all. how nice.

anyway. gss is here and i cant wait to get my pay. its been so long since i last went shopping. damn. i hate my working schedule cos it stops me from doing what i want. which is why i wanted to change to a part time job instead of this killer full time.

2009-05-22T00:26:00.003+08:00

just when i was so excited about me changing to part time instead of full time, i got struck with questions which made me think about my decision again. haha. i am seriously tired allthough its only 1 month that i've been there. the amount of work load can be so torturing. haha. anyway im given 2 more days to think about my decision again.

im so looking forward to june! im excited but at the same time afraid. haha.

2009-05-15T09:48:00.000+08:00

wahahahha. i swear im gonna get this phone when im steady on income. =))

2009-05-15T09:26:00.002+08:00

i suddenly realise somethings just cannot be seen from the outside. like personality and character. it shocked me when i got to know things i know i should not have known. or rather its so bad of me to go and find out. not out of investigation, but out of curiousity. only. haha. i have no comments about it though. i have no right to care or bother about it. but i dont think its gonna affect me in anyway cos i did not get to experience what she went through. so maybe thats a good thing for me. if not im sure i will be so disappointed.

alright. back to stuffs. i did not get the job. because they wanted someone with more experience to lighten their work load now. so its understandable. but nowwww, it means i have to go and search for a new job again! haha. jiayou!

im so bored. cos im all alone now.

2009-05-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

im dead tired! this 2 weeks is registration period in tien hsia and there are so many things to do.
so many folders, so many papers, so many receipt books, so many parents, so many kids, so many voices, so many words, so many many many phone calls.
headache. backache. legache. handache.
im going for interview for the new job on thursday.
but im so nervous and afraid. im afraid i wont get it. im afraid i have to stay at tien hsia for an even longer period of time.

2009-05-04T15:04:00.002+08:00

off day today! damn. im feeling so bored. as usual. im like wasting my off day everytime. thought i could put it to good use. but still. did nothing out of it.
going for driving lessons later.. hope i dont get all rusty after stopping lessons for a week. really hope i will be able to complete before july ends..
tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday and sunday, work. oh man. i so dont feel like going to work anymore. i dont feel comfortable working. im not myself. no one to talk to.
anyway. dinner-ed with boonseng ytd night. i felt more comfortable than last time. perhaps its cos he had a new target in mind. i feel great being a listening ear. and giving advices. im glad my advices are helpful to him. good luck!
i need my antidote. the mj session. to boost up my mood. i need my friends.
sighs. im so emo.

2009-05-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

SHERMIAN's 21ST! =D

2009-04-24T11:55:00.002+08:00

what the toot! i might be changing job again soon! damn. im excited about that job though. =DDDDD today is only the 3rd day at work. lol.

2009-04-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

passing 2nd day into work, and im very tired! lol. so much things to do, so much things to remember.. man! but its definitely something different for me. compared to the previous job. =)
kids are cute. lol. but their screaming can beeeeeeeee soooooooooo omg! lol.

2009-04-18T14:57:00.000+08:00

im such a stalker! AH!

2009-04-14T10:53:00.002+08:00

yes!!! finally! the long awaited day arrived! i passed my FTT!! woohoo! im so damn nervous when im in the test room. but i dint want to check my answers in case i do some wrong changes. came out of the room just after 15 mins of entering. alot of ppl left even faster making me even more stressed up. haha. but thankfully, its over! now im in stage 2 of driving alr. completed stage 1 in 4 lessons. im so excited in getting my licence. =D jiayou!

2009-04-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

I was at tampines 1 on the first day of its opening.. the shopping mall is not veyr big and i would say better than jurong point. just because there is topshop, dorothy perkins, uniqlo, carl's jr, num, diva, and so many shops there! although its very cramp cos of the lack of space there. and i was actually very amazed by the fact that people have to queue up outside to get into a fashion shop. its just a japanese casual wear shop. but. the designs are nice and its at a very reasonable price too. less than 30 or so u can get a t shirt there. the queue was actually all the way to the toilet, to the lift lobby, to the stairways down to the next level. so exaggerating.

anyway, i dont know if it is due to the first day of opening that alot of things seems so messed up. i met up with teng and simon for dinner there. firstly, we went to secret recipe. queued for sometime. then when its about to reach our turn, a waitress came and tell us they have no more food left. DUH! a restaurant without food! nvm.. we proceed on to this restaurant called F.I.S.H. service was okie at the beginning. but. it was really ~!#^&%#^#~!# after that. firstly, we placed our orders. drinks came like 15 mins later. den another 20 mins passed. the person came and tell us they have no more fish left. which is wad me and simon ordered. so we changed our order. another 15 mins passed. they served me my food. then, 5 mins later came another one more set of my food which we dint order. den they went to check it out. mins later teng's food was served. quality was bad.. den.. 10 mins later the chef came and say simon's food is not available. asked us to choose something else. and they say have to wait for another 15 - 20 mins. man. by then, its already 9.45pm. and the mall closes at 10pm. my dinner, whitefish dunno wad. with miniiii potatoes.teng's food eaten half way.

and simon's empty table. haha.

i hope things will be better after sometime. (:

2009-04-07T12:40:00.002+08:00

miracles do happen.

1.i woke up at 8am today.without any alarm clock.
2.i swept the floor.
3.i kept the clothes that are dry from hanging out ytd night.(i did the hanging too!)
4.i ironed the clothes that has been on the chair for ages.
5.i packed all the beds.
6.i had everything done before 11am.

did i just wake up being someone new? NO! hahahaha. i just cant sleep any more. lol.

its time i go out and have some fun with my beloved!

2009-04-06T15:11:00.002+08:00

why are days passing so slowlyyyyyy. and i wonder when am i exactly starting work. hmm. seems like no news from them. but nvm. see how ba. =)

im down with flu again. as usual. thanks to this stupid weather. sighs.

anyway. im fell in love with prata @ the frontier and pepper lunch. =)) lol. but i have no idea its making me fat. damn. i shld cut down on that already. heh.

2009-03-30T13:02:00.005+08:00

and ive again changed my blog skin. haha. damn. life is so boring when im not working. i seriously need a job man. why isit just so hard. or maybe im just picky. haha. anyway. i need an income to keep me going.

im going for my practical lesson today.. man. i dont even feel like attending it. probably because i know after these few lessons i need to stop again for sometime. just hope i can just complete this driving lessons fast and get my QDL.

few days back i brought my lovely dogs to pasir ris for a swim. it was so much fun. and its really hilarious to see them swim! although the sun was really hot that day and they had bumps on their paws after that, we all enjoyed ourselves to the max. =))

2009-03-09T19:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLY! ive updated my blog. i changed back to the old skin. anyway. i cant find a nice and suitable one of my liking. and im lazy to come up with one myself. im just so rusty now.

updates about myself. finally ive quitted my job and is currently in search of a new job. resting for a month or so first. im on the verge of rotting already. meanwhile, im back on track for my driving courses. and hopefully before july or august i can get the test dates. thats provided everything is smooth. i just passed my FTE today and FTT is a month away. so afraid i will fail it man. gotta go for the practice session before i go for the test. =)

oh damn. i cant wait for june to come. like finally. haha. and i so want to revamp my room! that is after my sis is happily married first of course. haha. and and! im damn pissed with my bloody com cos its so lagggggggg and its so problematic! and problem is! it was repaired once and now its spoilt again. damn.

2009-01-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

suddenly i feel so lost. i dont know who to turn to. i just need a listening ear.

and i hate new year.

2009-01-20T12:33:00.003+08:00

it's been nearly a month since i last blogged! man.. it's really getting dusty in here.. time for updates.. did i mention my outlet won first prize for the decorations for xmas last year? and.. guess what. we got 1st again for this cny deco! many many credits to wang mama! who did most of the paper cutting and folding.. she's really a pro. haha. =)

im so into pet society now that im logging into facebook every now and then. haha. but i must say the computer i use is reallllllll slowwwww. so can get really pek chek sometimes.

cny is coming up and i am not into the mood yet. unlike last year. i shop for my cny clothes real fast and i can buymore than 3 sets. this year. i only bought one set. hahaha. thats all. yup. i aint into the mood of celebrating cny though. cos its rather boring. although i do get to gather up with all my relatives. very long time once.. haha.

i wish i could overseas. haha. if only i have alot of money. HAHA. let me strike 4d. (this is wad all adults are hoping for) haha.

this is so random. im sick. slightly. on the road of recovery.

2008-12-28T10:44:00.002+08:00

AND!!!!! one more post. i strongly encourage people to watch the movie.. IP MAN. its damn damn damn nice! and cool! and touching! haha.

2008-12-28T10:25:00.002+08:00

it's CHRISTMAS with MR JAMES and cell group! =)) the big big group of the day! this is how playful children can get! but they are really talented. haha.

XCHANGE @ JIA's place PLUS! MAHJONGGG~

SENTOSA with aMEE love.

houseflies!

dats all~

2008-12-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

it's finally time i bear to let go. finally. haha. but before i really go, i want to make myself satisfied with what ive done. so ya. please be nice and obedient this last one or two month. and till i find another job. and one more thing. i used to love this company and the boss. haha. of course i still am. but not the company and the new damn it management. not going to comment much about what they do. but. you. you who talked me into taking up this position. you who talked a whole big story about sales and all. sorry to say this is pet retail line. not some other pinkish shop. dont try to convert us into like what they are. having worked 2 years in this comapny and ya. how great. this is what i get. all kinds of bloody changes. all for the better? you sure? have u any idea how much customers and biz we've lost? have u even any idea how many unsatisfied customers we have? fuck. hell no. talking about satisfying them and giving good service. come on. what is it that u noe abt them? what else do u noe besides telling us to buffer up and saying together we can make it? be here. be part of us. try out what we are doing. and i mean for long term. not for that fucking one day and u conclude what our customers are like. try it yourself. and wake up.

2008-12-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

OKIE! people is complaining im not updating my blog.. so i think its time i really come and update here alr.. getting dusty. haha. first things up..

ive officially quit focus music.. due to certain reasons.. although i feel kinda sad abt this decision but still, things cannot be really avoided. and ive been dragging and dragging this matter for a very long time so ya. after attending this school for more than one year plus plus, im rather sad to just leave like that. seriously, ive learnt quite alot in this school and i thank all the shi xiong and shi jies for all the guidance throughout the year.. most importantly, a very big thank you to laoshi for the teachings.. ive seen myself improving and changing.. and i can really see.. being in this industry is really kinda tough.. needs alot of hard work and time.. i hope i can be back to continue this course real soon.. and im missing MV part!!! how sad. =( and!! not forgetting.. my classmates.. its been really fun to be with this class for such a long time although there are times when we are not happy with each other also.. but all of it is over so ya.. hope all of u will endure and enjoy the remaining months in special course.. i will be back in school when im free to see all of u guys! =) take care people!

i have this sudden urge to quit my job now. hahaha. cos its tiring. =x and im really tired. but nvm. endure for a while more.. haha. =x there are so many things i wanna do but i dont have the time.. spending some time out with my family. spending time out with my friends. going shopping despite having no money. revamping my room. walking my dogs. going overseas. despite still having no money. haha. making people happy.

and oh yah! my company DND just ended not long ago and basically i kinda enjoyed the whole thing. few months back i was asked to compose this song for the company and on DND night i was told to sing it infront of everyone together with all the shop in charge. its not that bad after all. maybe cos not much audience so ya. haha. and kinda got sabo-ed by the management team to do some 'performance' on stage but too bad i think no pictures. lol. the other photos will be uploaded some other time cos im lazy and kinda tired now. HAHAHA. alright. i'll update again real soon. i hope. see ya! =)

2008-11-20T10:54:00.007+08:00

FM photo shoot~ sorry the photos came too late. hahahahaa. i have no time to edit them. enjoy!

2008-10-28T10:52:00.001+08:00

ive been asked to act as the ~~american next top model~~. lol. damn funny. bangkok airport!

2008-10-27T11:25:00.002+08:00

damn! im so sick of working.. ive been late for so many days. AHHA. or rather. so many minutes. a total of 128 mins! hows dat. HAHAHA. argh. im so gonna get it this coming meeting. anyway. i think i should stop making any decision for fm. cos its like always decide and den end up also never do anything abt it. next week will be the start of photo shooting dry run. den following week is actual photo shooting. haha. den followed by acting lesson and den MV shooting! excited. =x

2008-10-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

i feel hurt. but i dont know what to do.

2008-10-19T10:29:00.002+08:00

okie! my thailand trip was rather fun~ cos we all get to buy alot of stuffs. and man. the things there are so so so so so cheap. made me realise how much ive been spending and wasting in singapore! one thing i regretted is not bringing enough money.. haha. if not i can bring 2 luggages full of stuffs back! haha. but even though the shopping there is my favourite, i still prefer sg.. maybe cos of the peaceful and safe lifestyle here in sg. in thai, crossing a small road seems to be dangerous too. haha. but i love the toot toot! so damn cool! haha. sometimes its even cheaper than taxi! just a mere sgd$4. haha. how nice. bought alot of clothes. which hopefully i will wear. but i guess i need a long time to complete wearing all of them since i only have one day off every week. anyway. my most satisfied stuff bought is the big hooded jacket! weeee~ seen it since day 1 but bought it on the 5th day. hahahaha. its so cute and cool. hamburger fries coke sausage bun~ =D

we stayed in ASIA hotel.. located at ratchathewi station of the BTS transport. hotel room is bigggg. big enough for 4 of us, and so many of our luggages.. the toilet is big too. even bigger than my hse toilet. haha. there's bathtub too! but didnt get to soak myself in it though. haha. we went to alot of places but i cant really remember the names of all. i guess the place that left me with the deepest impression is the bangkok boys pub area. and it spoilt my impression of my FAVOURITE song xiang jian hen wan! nb! its really an eye opener la. hah. since we've never seen that before. ok anyway its weird. hahaha.

went to chatuchak too. its really BIG man. and we spotted so many dogs there! so cute yeah. too bad cant buy it back. hahaha. they even sell squirrels, hedgehog, snakes too! its really a tiring trip there. haha. been out the whole day everyday. and when its finally time to go back, im so excited! haha. i miss sg i miss my family i miss my friends and everyone.. =D flight supposed to be at 850pm thai time to come back to sg. but. nb. reach airport flight delayed for 2 hours. which seriously dampened my spirits. but anyway im still very excited when we reached sg! haha. so high so happy. home sweet home.

i miss that ass face of urs too.

2008-10-17T11:31:00.005+08:00

only uploaded a few of the thai trip photo.. cos i dun have much photos.. haha.

2008-10-17T11:25:00.000+08:00

before i forget.. CP @ studio 6.. haha.

2008-10-17T11:12:00.003+08:00

studio 6 on 15th oct! =)

2008-10-17T10:37:00.003+08:00

before i post abt my thai trip, here's pictures of the past few week's happenings.. first up, apple and eileen's bday celebration.. @essential brew~ =)

2008-10-09T11:52:00.003+08:00

man... i will be flying soon. i dont know why im not excited. maybe cos the fare is too ex, and ya. anyway. i feel so restricted having to blog here now cos i dont know who is reading my blog and who is not. but coming up with a private blog is going to be abit of a waste for me cos it means i have to set up a new blog! when im alr so attached to my current one. haha. so ppl. please let me noe if u are reading my blog.

i dont feel like leaving for thai. i just know im gonna miss my family. and im alr missing them. sighs. this time round its even much more than my genting trip that i miss them. and its my first time taking the plane. but i guess they cant come to the airport. cos its to late and even for my return flight, its in the midnight. i guess this is the time where i really learn abt independence. i heard bangkok is in chaos again.

have a safe trip. =)

2008-10-07T11:19:00.005+08:00

late entry..

the end.. more coming up~

2008-09-23T10:32:00.002+08:00

watched mamma mia with dpd ytd.. its kinda nice show.. u've got to loev music before u watch this show if not i dont think you will enjoy it.. cos it seems like a musical movie.. but its funny and lovely too. laughter and tears. haha. can watch and worth watching.. =) next was bak kut teh at balestier~ damn full! ate alot.. and thanks for treating.. i wont get tired of looking at all the photos there each time i go~ but why cant i find sxz ytd!! =(( or did i remember wrongly.. haha. nvm..

someone?

2008-09-22T10:40:00.002+08:00

i recalled once that laoshi told em about his first impression of me when i first entered music school. he said i seemed to be someone who is very difficult to get near to.. upon hearing that makes me feel like laughing. and then i begin to wonder why do i give people this kind of impression.. i though im very friendly! okie! im shy at times.. but. hey hey.. i am not that scary right.. haha. i want to know what can i do to make things better.. not only in music school but also all the other places and situations.. i dont feel the gap but i never know what the other people is thinking though.. haha. so ive got to control myself loh~ anyway.. there are so many things i want to say. i want to express. but i think im just lack of courage or what. so m i just hiding or is all these things just my illusion? haha. i dont know it myself. =)

its so tiring yet fun. to be learning the body language in the stage performances.. and im beginning to find my own confidence growing and getting less nervous alr.. but maybe for yesterday i was damn nervous cos im so afraid of doing the wrong thing.. but then again.. = / ya.. okie.

2008-09-19T17:51:00.002+08:00

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cpg you better be able to make it to my hse the next time! this time round with my sister too! haha. =)) take care of urself! bintan-ing soon~

dpd thanks for the few days back.. haha. i shant mention it here cos its nothing to be proud of. lol. thanks for the company and patience too! hahaha. more to come. =x

i miss fishy girl! =(

this month and next month is a hectic month for me! haha. later! ama here i come.

2008-09-19T11:30:00.002+08:00

3rd time of the month i cant take it! damn! what is happening to me! haha. it seems so weird. but anyway. aiya. it helps me wake up early. very early. for work. and i am ALWAYS very early when after that day. good thing.. but. i get tired after that and i get headaches and backaches too. this come to show my age.. not that little too ya. okie..

i dont believe that is me. and i dont want to find the answer. i dont think that is the case and i dont want it to be that way. haha. okie crap.

im sorry to the people i have been dragging the time with.. i will rush it asap.. give me time k.. nel&ball. sorry sorry..

2008-09-18T14:25:00.006+08:00

fooling day. =D

and surprisingly.. i couldnt take it. nb.

2008-09-16T20:47:00.003+08:00

KNN! :D

knn. knn. to think that my bloody fucking mood is just spoilt like that. damn it. after days of happiness. its just spoilt and destroyed like that. i seriously feel like strangling whowever i see now and slapping everyone and killing all of them. everyone anyone. fuck.

2008-09-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

they are the reason why i smile. (:

& they are the reason why working is fun. (:

with pooh and friends, the fun and wonder never ends.. (: specially done for my ass-es.

preparing one for the dumbdumbs soon. =p

2008-09-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

the fun old poly days! this was taken when i JUST joined SMIT club. so see i so guai.. =x i look so damn bird. hahaha. sentosa days when im rather riped in the club.. fun fun fun days.. *sighs*
guai right.... ((:
i dont know why are they fascinated by my curry puff. make until so big.
the rest of the photos are too unglam too be shown. =p only for our eyes. hahaha.

so real. so fun. so sweet. so happy. (: hahahahaha. im so into english songs suddenly.. just because i only found out ytd that haoting.com can find english songs too! hahaha. please keep quiet if u alr noe abt it.. i noe i noe.. im stupid. =p

2008-09-12T01:15:00.003+08:00

change of blogskin! =D loves. im into the simple and nice industry now. haha.

i love ecp and wcp! =) and i love yesterday night. haha. simply enjoyable. and fun.

this month for me is going to be a busy and interesting month! omg.. 2 songs to come up with.. and.. dance will be video-ed down by laoshi this coming sunday! die! im so nervous but excited too! ive been making a 'fool' out of myself in shop these few days. walking and dancing and flying and jumping all around. nonono.. ive got to behave.. =x

i got hit in shop today!!!! and i cant hit back cos they have a reason to hit me.. stupid nutripet. im gonna take my revenge one day. just you wait! (lol.)

2008-09-10T01:56:00.002+08:00

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~~i dont see the point of you lying to me.~~

2008-09-09T11:29:00.002+08:00

suddenly i see so many of my friends happily attached im feel so happy for them. haha. as long as they are happy with the other person, i will be happy for them.

and so suddenly, i feel i love my friends. hahaha. and i miss my family. i wan to go shopping with my mother. HAHAHA. hopefully one day we can go overseas as a family.

this post is sooooo random.

2008-09-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

i feel like raining. YES! raining! sighs. but ive got to control. =)

im tired. and im off to sleep. YES. correct. sleep!

2008-09-04T02:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wish i might as well just die. haha. i know this sounds ridiculous. but seriously. its probably the only way where i can not bother and be troubled about the things around me. it's hard being in between, it's really hard. friends, family, work, studies, play. maybe there are really alot of things that ive always kept to myself.. not because i dont want anyone to know. its just because i dont know who to tell to. and soemtimes. even the smallest things that after saying out, might turn into a big thing.. just this reason alone.. makes me keep quiet.. i chose to protect all situations. all people. in certain circumstances. i tried to make things better.. i tried to find solutions. i failed in everything. how sad. hah. is this just a small stepping stone i will be encountering? or is this a stone that will block alot of my way in the near future? i hope god can help me get it away.. i wish for someone who can lighten my burdens. my troubles. but it seems i still have to complete this myself. its hard not to relate some things to certain things. cos after all. it all links together. i dont have a good memory. which is why sometimes i end up making people upset too. i dont have a good problem solving mind. which is why i always end up crying first instead of thinking of solutions first. if my life is a board game, i would have thrown the dice so that i will walk past the obstacle and jump through problems after solving them in a glance. and if life is a puzzle, i wish i could fix it to perfection. or even near perfection. even if a piece is missing, i know the piece is not a good one thats why it went missing. even so, my life would still be a perfect piece cos the bad one is not in the picture..

i need strength.

2008-09-03T01:43:00.002+08:00

welcome to pets station! we are actually having this rewards card program now.. for every $30 dat u spend, u will receive 1 chop. so accumulate 5 chops u can redeem a $10 voucher if not, u can accumulate 10 chops for the $30 voucher. =) it is valid for 3 months from the date of issue.

2008-09-03T01:24:00.005+08:00

it's focus time!

2008-09-02T03:10:00.002+08:00

i told myself once that ive forgotten about you. given that its been so long since we last talked. talked as in, really talk. be it on the phone or even on msn. gosh. its really been so long. the long awaited month has finally been over, but i got disappointment. as usual. its rather expected though. even though you did not really promise me anything. (although you really did) haha. are you just plain forgetful or are you just saying. haha. but anyway. ive decided not to mention about it or remind you about it unless you mention it. well. get over it. whats the point of reading other people's blog? i mean. am i just trying to get information or what? i feel like a stalker. come on. people dont even know who i am. or maybe she does. okie. whatever. i dont have to compare myself to her cos i know nothing.

anyway. im so lazy to blog nowadays cos im really really really very tired. T.T today is my first day of full time. nothing special though. just kinda suay cos its my first day at work and i got a visit from my auntie too. so sad! managed to fight it through though. haha. so after all its still okie! first lesson of hip hop lesson commenced last friday and man. the steps we learnt are rather hard cos the teacher say what we are learning are steps taught in advanced hip hop. which is equals to.. i dont know how. its fast and energetic! need alot of power too. hah. i hope things are going to be so much more fun in the future! plus! we are learning body language in fm now.. moving of body during a performance and how to walk all these. its kinda tough but. i enjoy it. its fun. at least i felt so. yeap.

sometimes i wonder why are friendships so vulnerable. and.. unbelievable.. hm. i dont know if i used the right word though. but nvm. haha. saying about friends.. i miss alot of them now.. =/ where is fishy?? its been so long since i last hear from you... still busyyyyy?? catch up with me soon k! and amyyyy! i still want to go k. haha. please one day!k okie! haha. its been really long! and ju ar too. HAHA. all my poly mates.. i miss poly life so much~ especially with all of you around. man.. i wish i can go back to poly. haha. and.. apu and teng~ i miss studio6 and nights out! especially sentosa! haha. please employ more part timers and full timers! haha.

east coast park. movie. dinner. lets just leave it aside..

2008-08-26T02:06:00.002+08:00

finally! finally! new computer! but. problems. the screeeen issss sooooo bigggg wideeeee. i have difficulty viewing around. and. the cpu is compaq de laaaaaa.. screen is hp.. =.= abit sad though. cos i expected a whole set full hp com. haha. but anyway. nvm. this isnt that bad also.. i think. =/

im so so so so sooooo tired! and.. my mood have not been very good this few days.. sorry to people who was treated badly by me.. =x sorry sorry..

im so tired now. i think i shld go and have my beautyyyy sleep. haha.

2008-08-22T11:54:00.002+08:00

9 more days to no more freedom! seriousness! haha. perhaps its a good and better start for me. after all its time for me to behave and get serious about things already. but why do i feel so tired. especially when the time comes. and especially when everyday sales matters so much. haha. maybe im just thinking too much. everything is going to be just fine.. buck up! jiayou and work towards a better day! =)

ive signed up for the dance class! just ytd night. which means every friday i have to be in swps. which means no more slack days for et! haha. sorry! =x suddenly i feel my life is full of colours. haha. im going to start learning guitar soon too! and im going to get back knowledge on my mathematics! and my chinese speaking too! and of course. my singing! =D i feel so GUAIII now... HAHAHAHA. ok dont puke.

this sunday is SKC dog show at singapore expo! its my first time going with APU! (i think?) and of course with the sales manager around too. haha. hmm..

anwyay i'll be getting a new desktop soon! i think today or sometime this week. weee~ its been days since i last used a com at home. i think i can survive without a computer though. it seems to me that im doing fine. =) although its still late nights for me. haha. dont ask me what am i doing. but definitely they are all decent stuffs! im reading this particular storybook now but i still have a long way to go cos its so big and thick. haha. i still have 2 books waiting for me to be read! haha. studious huh. =x

i kinda miss someone now. =/

2008-08-20T10:25:00.002+08:00

brought my laptop to funan fujitsu service centre ytd and the lady told me servicing my laptop costs..... $900+!!!!! crazy right! haha. therefore decided on not repairing. and anyway the laptop is old enough to pass away already. haha. it's been 4 years~ looking forward to getting a new desktop now. but. need to take sometime cos we are so broke. HAHA.

oct's thailand trip's been confirmed.. going to thailand with laoshi and shixiong shijie(s) plus my class.. cos arnd 270+. it's my first trip to thai and i hope it's going to be fun too.. (:

i cant wait for ecp to come! haha. the last time i went was on laoshi's bday celebration and i missed the place! thinking of bringing ET for a walk there too. hah. =DD

2008-08-17T11:21:00.002+08:00

announcement! my laptop is officially dead on the 15th august 2008! ohman.. im gonna be so bored! i guess it chose the correct timing to be spoilt too. cos my brother's going to have his psle soon. and he just dont seem to be able to concentrate. but even though there is no laptop, he still has his psp, his gameboy and the tv. with the olympics going on like this, i guess he really no need to study anymore! haha. but one thing is. he still can tell me science is easy! god. haha. i failed my PSLE science though. HAHA. but nonetheless, i got A for maths and english okie! chinese B i think. yup. to think that im a chinese still. hah.

anyway. congrats to the singapore table tennis team for making it into the finals! its such an honour to be a singaporean. even though im not the one playing in the olympics. HAHA. even though in the other segments we did not get a thing, they are alr very good to be able to represent singapore to participate in olympics. cos getting into it isnt an easy job.. =)) jiayou!

ytd acc fishy to somewhere arnd town and then we headed down to geylang! HAHA. and.. eat DURIAN! the feeling is so shiok can. been so long since i last ate durian. enjoy luh! its a durian day! haha. i burped so many times and durian is all around.. HAHA! =p

damn it. why are things so difficult now. and i cant bring myself to believe that things have become so bad now. the feelings are so weird. so unfamiliar. sighs.

i need a proper schedule.. ms is a headache.. not the things tat we do but the timing. i dont think im able to make it for ms on sundays anymore. given that full timers cant off on weekends. cant possibly i be taking hours off or leave on sundays when i just start my full time job right.. weekdays are impossible too. thinkthinkthink. x

i want to go ecp.
i want to go geylang.(eat durian.)
i want to go overseas.
i want to go taiwan.
AH!!!!

2008-08-12T10:31:00.003+08:00

400th post. firstly, to the tiny dumbass. take care ya! sick already still can go out play. power you. but i think got the bird nest you shld be able to fly up high ya. like a bird. faster okie leh! i wan to go SINGGGGGINNNNGGGGG~ =D and stingyyyyyyyy. XD

currently, there are so much things running on my mind.. firstly, yes. i should i ask myself this question. am i ready to take up this challenge? this seemingly easy job. but looking at it in details, its really kinda tough. im neither smart nor stable. even though maybe alot of things can be learnt. if i want to. i definitely wish i could do this. but. the thought of having someone look at your performance everytime, stresses me. i cant imagine myself becoming more guai. HAHA. =x although now im already very guai. hmmmm. xD

secondly, there are so many things i want to do now. but. i guess its the finance part that is making me messed up. and also the time. maybe i shld take things at a step. focus on whats really more important now and make full use of my time. haha. =x for now, ps and fm. maybe plus dance! arghhh. i dont know.

2008-08-10T02:26:00.006+08:00

before i begin blogging, i've to announce.. i've finally COMPLETED this book!! hahaha. its 403 pages! and yeah! finish lo! suddenly i have the interest in reading. haha. im starting a new book soon. =)) yesterday was 8 AUG 08! firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HO SHI TING! haha. stay happy and CUTE always! =DD next, me fish and sher went to snow city for this particular so called "count down" party for National Day.. haha. the thought of it seems so interesting.. and cool. haha.

fish and sher in the boots!
us! and im sliding off the seat already!
skiing? or driving? or playing hopscotch? you decide. HAHA.

the lonely night.. where someone is afraid of getting molested..
when is the light going to shine on me again? emo~
pole dancing.. HAHA.
TADAH! her boyfriend..
Winter Wonderland..

US! they actually dont have to bend.. we are the same height..
LOL. i dont know what to say about this picture. HAHA.
SHER and FISH!
she's jealous i can hug lamp post.
we are supposed to DENG each other. but its all laughters.

she wants to laugh alr!
woo~
NEXT! STUDIO 6 and MOS! it was the first time we had this combination! going out together.. haha. this night joanne and ivy drank the most. cos of the game 5 10. haha. its fun just going out crazying like that. haha.
APU and me!
JOANNE and IVY!

me and JOANNE!
TENGY and me! that is my SPECS!
APU singing~ TA SHUO TA HEN AI TA~~~
me extra-ing. HAHA.
TEQUILA SHOT. the colour is not supposed to be like that btw. cos we finished alr den i remembered i forgot to take a picture of it. HAHA. so i just anyhow poured a beer inside.

they like to play with my specs ah. HAHAHA.
@ MOS!
*SMOOCH!*
DUMBASSES.

thats all of us to you! =D

2008-08-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

special entry: to yap.

yap made a surprise visit to cpps the other day! haha. so shock to see him. really. like really ages never see him already ya. im glad things are going on well. especially so many of them are all in army.. well, guys pls take care ya. im still saddened by the case of the sudden death of the guy who went to brunei for training.. reading the gf's blog makes me sad too. i dont know how to explain. but i guess the pain for her is alot. well, ya. = / anyway back to yap. we shld have a gathering with all of them again soon! i want to see how all of them look like now. haha. gonna be so funny seeing all botak heads. haha. =x

okie! back to my normal post. i made myself a pair of specs! basically cos my eye sight getting poorer on the other eye! which used to be perfect! gdi! scary.and the person told me its still not normal for me to be like that. what is wrong with me man. so many problems. sighs. i suddenly have this thinking of whether i will live that long to see my great grandchildren. HAHA. *touches wood*

and oh ya. i think i converted to full time position alr.. firstly, im in need of money. not just normal sum of it. but quite an amount of it. secondly, no harm trying it out.. thirdly, i can still leave anytime when i find another job! haha. =x yawn! i hope this is not going to be stress.. i shall see how it goes.. but working in cp now have been making my temper kinda bad. and i get vexed so easily too. lalala. so im clever but i just lack of discipline and my lateness is a problem too. i wonder what have they said about me. = / i thought my impression to certain people isnt that good as well. i hope i can prove them wrong. though i feel really really stressed and tired. = /

2008-08-05T02:20:00.002+08:00

photos taken in jia's phone the other day..

anyway.. firstly, happy birthday to gaston! another friend joining me in 20s. HAHA. gd luck ya! (4th Aug.) i wanted to make it a habit for me to blog everyday! but everyday seems so boring for me! i cant be talking about my work everyday! readers will sleep.. =D

okie. which means. i have to end it here cos its alr 2.36am! and im working am shift. HAHA. XD anyway i cant wait for wednesday and friday! haha! =DD

2008-08-04T01:52:00.002+08:00

i dont know what should i blog about but i just have the urge to blog. talking to myself here everyday is making me crazy. one day. haha. today's ms.. and we were supposed to submit our song to laoshi.. i think my song sucks. basically its so weird. and i sang it. so it totally suck. ya. sighs. i though today was going to be my last lesson. but i guess not.. not leaving gives me headache and leaving gives me heartache.. which is better? having a headache ot heartache? laoshi said i could pay school fees at a later time when i have enough money to.. i dont have to worry about the finance part.. at least for now.. hai.

why do bad things have to happen and why does all these spoil the rest of the things? its sad to hear that all the things done in the past did not make a difference and is not a big deal at all. and its sad to know all this have to come to this situation and end. i cant choose the things i want and i cant choose the story line. i guess this is all part of life and ive got to learn to accept it. but why is my life so miserable. but first things first, why do i even have to be bothered by other people's thoughts? i think the answer is all these makes me a me.

ffffff! i blooody hell need to think. i want to catch up with my poly mates. i want to feel in school once again! just one last time! i miss sp life.. =(

2008-08-02T02:01:00.011+08:00

2 days ago we celebrated lang's birthday! @vivocity/habourfront centre! before that me and ama met up and went walking and eating all arnd. i love my camera! haha. =p and look! my eyes are sooooooo cool. =x yes it's just so sweeeet!
the book for langy! i look like im having an autograph session! hahaha.
food from sakae! after playing a game with lang finally we get to eat! haha.
dun have me cos its in lang;s camera! haha.
the happy hapy girl.. =D

and our round of photo taking began... first.. toilet.. with my signature pose.. haha.
look at me and jia. haha. damn funny.
next.. we shift place to the baby room.. and we spent more than 30 min there.. just doing....?
i look like a small kid! hahaha.
langedise posing!

no im not on the toilet bowl.
emo.
again.
jia and her pink!!! shoe..
the crazy girl. HAHAHAHA.

we are siao char bo-s!
i look so short. T.T

but at least im better than her.. HAHA. =x oops.
den we proceed to the rooof top for more present opening!
enjoying herself.
and i love this game! anyone wan to play with me???? =DDD
it was so much fun on that day! haha. i hope langy enjoyed too! and all the best to her new school, new school term, new friends, new environment, new lecturers, new everything! jiayou!

and! today is the start of the new management, new chop chop card system! kind of fun. haha. but heng ah! im not the one who kept repeating time and again about how this chop chop card is being used.. the beginning is always the toughest.. at least some things are better.. haha. but im still not used to the fact that we have to wear the name tags! man.. but anyway it doesnt seem to affect me.. cos.. hahaha. xp jiayou everyone!

the decision and courage had finally arrived.. i told laoshi about my problems and my thoughts.. im determined.. to make things in my family better, to make things at work better, to make things between me and my friends better.. not that i didnt add in the point of making things in focus music better.. but. i need to salvage the rest of the things in my life now before proceeding with these things.. i've so much to worry about, so much to do.. i need people to understand me.. understand my situation.. if they really cared for me.. i dont ask for people to care for me, i just need people that i love to be there for me. thats all that i need.. it hurts so much to hear what was coming out of her mouth although she might not mean it. that is what i can only tell myself. perhaps i should really move ahead..

maybe i need to explain things and clear things out.. if not i will only make things go worse. anyway. alot of people has been asking me why i am still working in here and not yet leaving.. first things first.. saying that they have not enough staff might be one.. next, will be the place.. i've gotten so used to working in there i find myself being very comfortably settled down. even though all the implementations are up. even though so many things changed. i still like it there. then, is the world outside. yes. im afraid of facing the people i dont know out there. im afraid of having to get myself to fit into a new environment. a job that requires much more than my current one. and maybe.. the people around. the friendly customers, the staffs, the familiar faces and surroundings.. although financially wise it isnt helping much.. but.. on all the other aspects.. at least im happy in here.. im afraid of the history repeating itself.. i dont want things that i see now happening to myself..

i have the sudden feel to grow up and be strong. i need to be thinking. jiayou.

2008-07-29T02:46:00.002+08:00

i dont know what happen to my phone out of sudden! there is no network coverage! i cannot receive sms-es, i cannot send sms-es.. i cannot even make phone calls! and i doubt people can get to me too.. =( so sad.. i seriously hope its just the sim card problem and i dont have to bring my phone for repair.. if not i will be sending a total of 3 phones to repair! thats like so sad and busy of me.. anyway.. i've been really tired recently.. and i find myself being more and more lazy especially when there are people there to help me. x cannot!! in fact i think i am more hard working when i am alone. hahaha. but that will make me dead by the end of the day. haha. i miss those times where i kept on working morning and working full without getting tired at all. where has all my energy gone to?! oh damn. i need to pump up my energy level..

sighs. talking about all those things.. life has been so dead too. like seriously, i need something to make me happy. i dislike pulled down emotions and i dislike quarrels.. i dislike disputes and even misunderstandings just like how i dislike cockroaches. i dislike being maligned when i say dont get into people's head at all. and being strong headed, we end up quarrelling. eg, i need to explain to my mm about my life, my doings and everything and at the same time i need her to understand me as well.. it's not that she dont understand.. i bet she understands.. just that she needs time.. what to do? she is my mm. so same like me. abit slow. =x yah. other than her, sighs. yah. i hope things will get better..

the thought of leaving ms is really coming into me now. i dont want to be the only one pulling down the whole thing and i find myself becoming more and more shag. alright. maybe they are just excuses. maybe i have the choice to choose from. but i didnt want to. i didnt make the right choice or things like that. all these is going to drain me out of my energy, my time, my relationship with my family. as well as friends. i just suddenly feel kind of lonely and helpless.

i wish i could go back to the past when all was young and innocent. come on.. dont take away my number 1! i hate number 2. and am not gonna like number 3 either.

2008-07-27T02:11:00.003+08:00

A Mixture of Everything.

last week me apu and tengy went to watch 10 promises to my dog. which. some nice ppl...... happened to be 25 minutes late for the show!! how punctual huh this person... dun have to mention who la.. she noe herself. hahahaha. by the time we wanted to enter, the staff is no longer at the entrance counter.. so we actually went in just like that. haha. this explains why our ticket is not torn! haha. cool huh. anyway. this show really made me cry so much! tears just came rolling down and man! i used up the whole packet of tissues! not enough still! haha. its really touching but some parts are rather fake. the animated tail especially. other than that its okie.. haha. all of us came out of the theatre with bubble eyes! haha. and we left the theatre in a rush so as not to let ppl see our eyes. AHHAAH.

few days back, on the friday, me and my classmate of fm, leo, went to li de hu sheng, ah tian da ge's studio for our studio interview.. i was really nervous at first because its my first time going for studio interview without laoshi arnd! but overall it was a nice and fun experience! this is the place at somewhere near aljunied. i had to wake up at 6am plus just because its at aljunied! haha. man..

please ignore the height difference. thank you.
after interview i went to cwp to work! and walked arnd before going into shop. i noticed these really nice cupcakes! and i bought them and eat! haha. so cute. but. it is not really nice to eat. haha. cos u will get sick of it. haha. Tried out this whole jump suit? haha. i like it! but i doubt i will wear it. cos its HOT PINK in colour! haha. and im afraid eyes will be on me with those weird expressions.. XD the potential CAI laoshi~ =D
i LOVEEEEEE my ECSTACY! the one with eyes open on the wheeeel~ hahaha. he is one clumsy fellow with a bigger and heavier head. he walks like a duck and always falls from high places. even when just climbing out of the food bowl, he falls down. the head will reach the ground first. its damn cute to see this and it just makes me smile. loves!

2008-07-23T02:58:00.003+08:00

okie. its time. really time. why do all the bad things happen today! or rather these 2 days! its a bad bad tues and wed. ha. firstly, my schedule is soooo packed. meeting up with lovelies. different groups of lovelies. on different days. i need to leave my saturday off, my monday off, my wednesday and friday as well. damn. other than meeting up with them, i still have my music school. we'll be going to some studio somewhere to record our interview with.. .. a DJ but i cant remember the name.. =x and then we'll have lessons on sunday. as usual. and then very soon, we will be learning abt the movements. dancings, facial expressions and alot of other things. well well. im kinda excited but also stressed. ya. cos. of the late night home.. yup.

ok other than that.. ps new management. totally....... shucks. maybe i looked at it too seriously. or maybe to me, all these is too much. overboard. i just feel that being at work makes me feel so fake. having to put on a front in the face of customers. when deep down, all these feelings are not real and it is so tough. so many of a time when im totally moodless to the point where i dun even feel like talking and saying anything. but. afterall i still have to talk. i need a break. but i dun wan any break. i dun wan any break for me to stay home. i want to have more time out. but i dread going shopping. i dread going out and play. perhaps im shld take royal caning extigent. note to self. maybe im just not in the mood now. but however i do enjoy playing. haha. i enjoy the times out. okie. i dont know what im trying to say here but yeah. nvm. but i need to know the reason why. why do things change. the feeling is so weird. so.. unfamiliar.. so.. stranger. sighs. i still have to face it anyway. there is no way to hide. no way at all. (topics are jumped all arnd. based on what comes to my mind first.)

and finally. i shld really give things up. for the final time. once and for all. i hate having to say it all the time and not doing it everytime. each time i say it, i say for real, i end up turning my back to the main point. today, i did something i shldnt have done. invading of other's privacy. i know out of curiousity i will do it. i know for sure it seems like my weekly routine. but i have no idea why i chose to open up certain things which i usually wont do. only to see some things i think will make me drop. yes. true enough what laoshi said is so true. cancerians are emo. and they think alot. they get hurt easily but hey trust me. im being strong enuff alr! YES! after all, faces win. and they really do. and the straightforwardness of them shows everything.

now. its the end!

i have the urge to,

go swimming,

go movie-ing,

go badminton-ing

go overseas,

go seaside,

go sentosa,

go do things that are crazy,

try out things which i nv dared to in the past,

go clubbing,

go singing,

go dancing,

go take up dancing lessons,

take up drawing lessons,

take up fashion design,

study in poly once again!

all these are crazy. i dont think i will even do them.

2008-07-20T03:23:00.002+08:00

it's a cold cold night tonight. im all alone at home now. everyone bluff me! haha. my sister said she is coming home tonight which i find it very weird cos every friday and saturday she is always out. and not back. and then my parents and brother went for my cousin's 21st birthday party. my mum said she is coming back but my dad might not be coming back. and end up.. no one came back at all. haha.

its surprising how i come to feel im really getting older and older. one by one my friends are getting married.. haha. people of my age.. getting married! so sweet. haha. makes me feel old. although i feel i have not played enough. and have not seen enough too. i am missing someone. someone i shld not even be missing. haha. but i'd rather be happy than to be sad. so i continue on. at least. all these memories are happy ones.

i think im really abnormal now. i've been feeling giddy the whole afternn plus night. out of sudden. and i wish there was a bed jus next to me all the time. so i dont have to control myself. can just fall anytime. =x but of cos i'd rather not fall at all. sighs.

2008-07-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

i found this entry in my blog 2 years back. posted in 2006. haha. and i still love this entry. =)

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart... if you don't, you might break theirs. Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own.. when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

hmm. so ya. this is it. I LOVE YOU! =)

2008-07-16T03:57:00.004+08:00

doctor gave me results about my blood test and the results is.. i have NO dengue fever. just that. there is these dont know what palette in my blood stream that is higher than normal. which makes me abnormal. the nurse says. and. anyway. the blood taking was a good experience.. i remembered the last time i went for blood taking, i cried like hell. and i was holding onto my mother. HAHAHAHA. yes. and. guess what. i was sec 3. and funny thing was.. my mum cried with me. HAHA. XD talking about motherly love.. =) i can sense and feel her love. haha. ok back to topic. the doc took 2 tubes of my bloood! gdi! so much! i closed my eyes and let him take. but i am very happy cos this time round i did not cry. and. i went ALONE. =)

this was what happened to my legs and hands on the 2nd day. it looks damn disgusting. but this wasnt the worse situation. i didnt want to take a photo of the worse as i might cry. T.T but anyway. photo still looks okie.

MY BLOOOOD!
they told me to go back for the results review today. but i skipped it. i think i will just go back later. in the afternoon or morning. and anyway. tengy fell sick too. i guess the germs and viruses do spread really fast.. hmmm. i shld stay away from the shop or people the next time i fall ill. =x so sorry!

and. to miss fishy young girl..

pls dont regret what u said to me.... (: i welcome u in 20 hours time. *smiles* and ya. i know. you love me.

i havent been watching movies lately.. so many shows i want to watch! im waiting!

2008-07-14T02:27:00.005+08:00

a cute picture to start off the post.. =D next, 11th july, slightly advanced LAOSHI bday celebration @ ECP.. with SHAWNA jie and KENNETH shixiong BBQ-ing..
ANDON and SHAWNA jie~
covering the cake with the already burning candle. the wind is soooo strong!
ADP class juniors with LAOSHI~
ADP special class 14 + ANTHONY with LAOSHI!

following on are all our SHIXIONG SHIJIE in FM!

FANG laoshi, FEIHUI laoshi, RAYMOND ge.

SHIXIONGs with LAOSHI~
the BIG BIG card from FM, PSP slim and our class's card to laoshi!

one big family of FM! not all were present though..
12th July 2008 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEIHUI LAOSHI!

and anyway. i dont know what was wrong with me.. my hands and legs are covered with red marks looking like rashes.. its scary. seriously. cos its my very first time experiencing this situation. and im trying my very best to remain very very calm.. it started last night. and i thought maybe i was just allergic to dust or some food. and it might just go away after a night's sleep. but i woke up the next morning seeing it getting worse. and im really panicking.. i went to the doctor's in the afternoon and due to some of the symptoms i have, it's suspected that i am down with dengue fever.. can u imagine!!! dengue fever! there were like so many news reports on how dengue can actually kill someone and now im told that i might be down with it?! but the doctor sound as though dengue is nothing. so i suppose it must be nothing much.. i hope. and because today is sunday when i visit the doc's, consultation fee is DAMN high and. the doctor to actually take my blood test is not in. and im supposed to come back the next day to take my blood test. if im really down with it i guess by tml i would have alr been half dead. but since im feeling okie so doctor feels its safe for me to go and come again the next day. and.. when i proceed to the cashier, she told me at first consultation fee is $34.. and for the BLAH BLAH BLAH thing which adds up to $66. FULLSTOP. and den. she start again. "so total will be $107. paying by cash/nets?" i got a shock of my life man. gdi. its my FIRST time visiting the doc for a consultation and test which costs me SOOOO much! but nonetheless i hope the report tml will give me negative results. means. no dengue. jus normal wadever illness. im really scared la. and ive got really ugly legs now. so i have to wear long bottoms these few days. which makes it seem as though im going according to the rules now. wearing long bottoms and covered shoes to work. oh wells. maybe this is the chance to let me get used to wearing them. damn!

some people just dun appreciate it.. maybe i just am not good enough for you. and i know i never will. i will just be the normal me and joke with you, play with you, be there for you whenever u need me to. but i'll never put u into a difficult situation where u'll start to avoid me or drift away from me.. if saying things out will affect everything now, i'd rather things remain these way as im really happy enough now. like what i've said, so much so dat i wanted to let go and forget, equally same amount that i cant do it. and i dun bear to, i dun wan to. i chose to keep the memories with me. and to make people happy. =) not just you. but everyone i love. =D

2008-07-09T02:40:00.002+08:00

just so random.

i miss poly.
i miss FO camps.
i miss ICE camp.
i miss prep camp.
i miss night walks.
i miss the sound of my fast beating heart beat when walking through the night walk route.
i miss the laughter during night walk when we got frightened by people.
i miss the hearings of all the bad words when people got firghtened by us.
i miss hiding in a place with my loves to scare people.
i miss playing the games.
i miss the piggyback game.
i miss the overnights in school.
i miss disco night in tutorial classroom.
i miss going to the toilet under clubroom to bath in the middle of the night.
i miss the packing up after camps.
i miss going to the basketball court.
i miss watching the intercons in basketball court and indoor court.
i miss sitting in FC6.
i miss the food.
i miss the faces i see each day i am in school.

overall, i miss school life.. :(

i miss alot of my loves. my girls! especially. the forever tiny girl which ive already known for more than 3 years! time really really flies! and memories will always remain! lovessss to u!! (: and! the marine life animal who dont have a tail nor fins, its great to have u with me too! loves to u too! (: not forgetting the rest! u noe who u are! =p

2008-07-09T01:14:00.002+08:00

things are beginning to change and although to other people, all these change is nothing and maybe applicable. but to us, its all too much. maybe its just because we know the crowd more than u. and its just merely less than a WEEK u are here and u believe all these change will do the company good? come on. face the fact. who dont like to buy things in discount? who would want to get a CHOP when what they can get better was discounts? please dont tell me u would prefer chops to cheaper purchasing price. i'd laugh my heads off. money aside.. attire. okie. i agree my attire is inappropriate compared to some other shops. casual wear is my theme. i wear what i feel am comfortable in. being in something u dont feel at all comfortable in, where on earth will u even have the mood to work. especially when what we do here is maintaining of stocks and all sorts of stuff that make people perspire for sure. who would like to work in sweaty and smelly attires?? answer me! i just simply dont understand HOW do people manage to cary 2 different kinds of face with them all the time. dont they feel tired? even if they dont, i do feel disgusted for their actions and everything. if u even plan to change anything, follow these. firstly, respect others first before wanting others to respect u. secondly, understand the situation in all outlets before making any decision/changes to the shop. after all u are not the one handling the shop. thirdly, PLACE YOURSELF IN OTHER PEOPLE'S SHOES before saying/doing anything. lastly, WE ARE NOT the pink colour shop that is well known to the majority. so, please do not take us for the same kind of biz. we sell stuffs that are totally different for gods sake. one very last thing, have a life..

2008-07-08T03:18:00.006+08:00

cute little pig: HELLO!

the very cute ben and jerry LIP BALM! its only a THUMB SIZE! VERY CUTE. XD mine is COOKIE DOUGH! CHAO TA me and APU.
TENGY and APU~

i've been sleeping uber late these few days. almost 5am. and i only caught a few hours of sleep and poof i have to get up for work. i just cant make myself sleep. or rather i did not try to lie on bed and make myself sleep. well anyway, as much as i am looking forward to having a quiet day at home alone for the WHOLE day, just lazing around and sleeping. powering up my energy level. but it seems like my house will always have someone at home. and another point is that, i need to work. the amount of money i earn in a month is not enough for my everything.. i seriously need to save up so much.. so sad. T.T

special class started last sunday! with new classmate joining us from previous ADP class, yan yan, we are now a 4 person class! special class 14~ laoshi played alot of MTVs and videos for us to see on the first lesson.. some are really nice.. given that it was shot using a consumer camera.. and at low cost in all the props and settings.. i am seriously impressed.. and i look forward to MTV shooting.. (: meanwhile, we need to go through quite a number of stuffs before going into MTV.. a long way to go.. but i wonder if i can stay for that long.. = / hmmm..

the SPECIAL CLASS 14! (L to R): YANYAN, ME, ANDON, LEO~

the 4 faces of us.. RYAN, ME, ANDON. @ partyworld!

i look so DAMN WEIRD here! XD

this jus dont look like me! haha!

and anyway! just the other day, i finally got the chance to sit in mr fit's car.. and he adds up to the few of my friends who drives kinda fast on roads.. but its a nice ride and i like the car! cos it feels so cosy and quiet. okie, ack to topic, we went to jalan kayu to eat our lunch, basically i need to pass him his stuffs that was why we met up. and he owed me a meal cos of my birthday.. so its a make up! ate at this place called spizza.. we reached at 2.25pm when.......... the place closes at 2.30pm. lucky enough. the people there are nice and we manage to place our order. only till the end did i know his family should be a regular of the place. the environment there is kinda nice too. and its a small small place. cant take in too many people at one time too. he introduced the salmon pizza to me and yeah. its kinda nice~ (: just that i *laughs* find the vege on the pizza weird. HAHA. see!

the vege is in BIG BIG pieces~ XD overall its nice~ thanks for the treat! (: it was kinda having heavy rain when we were leaving.. good thing there is umbrella. (:

this is the reason why i call him mr fit. and the term fit is used by the person himself. not me.and anyway i went back to work after eating lunch.. thank you once again!

2008-07-05T02:58:00.002+08:00

the craze for duck porridge is back!!

2008-07-04T01:02:00.003+08:00

today is free from work day! off we went to sentosa after soooo long! the last tanning session i went for was like months and months ago! and i actually took like a year to get fair.. letting the tan colour fade off by itself.. and today.. i became ORH ZARP ZARP again! and weird thing is.. only my face is red! my hands and legs are black. but my back can clearly see the bikini line and my shoulders are red.. XD haha. it was seriously STRONG sun today! and i didnt know people with low blood pressure cannot stay under the hot sun for too long.. and we were there for hours! after that went to vivocity and i start to have severe headache.. and i felt very cold.. totally shivering.. haha. and then i knew i was about to fall sick.. anyway. i can be very cold and suddenly i get very hot. on and off. anyway, went to topshop and tried that white jeans again.. i feeel like buying it.. but its so ex can.. $116! and then went to river island and tried another jeans, $129! haha. but end up i did not buy anything at all and they bought bottoms! and! we got a very cute thing.. BEN & JERRY lip balm! its super cute! next entry i shall show u guys the pics!

its time to meet up some of my friends! i have been neglecting them so much! and the guys! one by one, all entering army.. the girls.. either start UNI, or.. start their working life.. haha. schedules are so hard to plan, and weekends are so short.. awww. i need more time!

2008-07-03T02:34:00.002+08:00

in replies to the taggers!

@james: 2nd batch of 6-1=5 left now. u have to wait arnd 2 to 3 or 4 weeks! haha. cos its damn small now.. cos the mother really dont know how to take care of the babies this time round.. abit scary..

@nel: haha.. yeah. sometimes? u dont be so negative can.. u sound so sad la.. and. YOUR ARMY is coming soon! so mus enjoy life for this few days left! =x

@adria: haha. we secretly took the photos one! but is before lesson time!! so i think its okie ba.. =x

@andon: change alr loh!! now mus update again.. ~~pass ADP~~!\\

@lang: heh! yeah~~~ love photos nowww. LALALA. =x

@jun: hahaha. =p its okie la.. at least i REMEMBER yours! lol. =x do u feeel guilty????? YES??? =x HAHAAHAHA. jus jokingggg..

@jia: u kuku!!!! give me sometime.. den i send u again.. cos my thumbdrive is not with me.. haha.

@yap: got meh? photos do really bluff ppl.. =x

okie! back to entry! today is the very LAST DAY of ADP class.. and laoshi explained to us all abt the special course we will be going up into.. theres so much things i wanted to say.. but.. you just never know.. anyway. special course is going to be so tedious! things to do are, going to some radio station for interview session training, photo shooting, filming our group MTV and solo MTV(depending on performance), learning dancing, learning the proper way of moving on stage, body language, studio singing training and.. writing of song.. all these... require much brain and time! and! energy! can i even make it?? god. im still wondering.. its the fees dat is stopping me now.. and my family too..

i just found out that the flip flops actually links.. im just like an outsider with one pair of flip flop missing.. too hard to blend in..

2008-07-02T00:52:00.002+08:00

my posts are all so randomly posted! haha. anyway. last week, driving was damn fun cos instructor drove me out of BBDC and let me take the wheel. i was really nervous at first! but it was really fun. cos driving outside can drive fast fast! HAHAHA. =x i cant wait to get my licence..... =DD

and oh! last wednesday was our ADP final test! and i think i screwed up a little!! my singing basically cannot make it.. sighs! and den. the interview was rather fun. and relaxed. although a little stress still. and the last part of the test was the funniest and.. erm.. weird? ahha. cos i really dont know what else to say in there and then what i did was just to repeat and drag the whole thing longer by the 'hmmm..','erm...','ran hou......'. HAHAHA. after the test we plus laoshi(s) and shixiong shijie(s), went to newton circus and eat.. the food is nice! and its a treat from laoshi.. thank you! finally 10 months ended! and im still wondering if i shld join special course or not.. there are surely alot more things to learn.. but.. the finance part, and the things i hear.. make me wonder.. HOW!!!

one of baby motted died! i think the corn cob suffocated him/her! =( so sad.. i thought finally i have an even number of babies.. roar.. the mother is too aggressive alr.. i dont even dare to catch it. cos it bites me! asshole.. =x

2008-07-01T03:13:00.003+08:00

i noticed ive really turned fair.. dun tell me its my make up~ i put so little dat ppl cant see im on it. see. okay anyway. i think im going through the pimple outbreak season! damn it! i hate it i hate it i hate it! i guess its due to the late night sleeps, the early wake ups, the dirty stocks, the junk foods, and my pathetic skin. haha. past few days was the CWP ATRIUM sales! it was crazy! as we see the sales increase each day, the last day was totally hectic. those working upstairs is more tired than i am.. i worked full downstairs.. which compared to them is nothing.. one thing for sure..... pay is going to be high this month!!!!! WEEEEE! hahahah.

im looking forward to thurs! =DDD

2008-06-30T10:53:00.005+08:00

i dunno why i cant upload the rest of the photos! ARGH! nvm. haha. anyway. this is the 21st JUNE 2008 ZOO TRIP with FISH and male FISH! =DDDD

i loveeeee otters! they are damn cute! god.. we spent a quarter of the day looking at them. HAHAHAH.

HAHA. damn im over exposed! HAHAH..

FISH tot she is going to be molested/raped..
WHITE TIGERS!
HIIIIIPPPPOOOOOO!!
HIPPOS!
i LOVE this photo! haha. it was caught without any preparation OKIE!

some kind of kangaroo which isnt a kangaroo.. and not a mouse..
PARROTTTTT.
THIS IS DAMN CUTE. AHHAHAHA. BABOON. RED PI GU.
BABY oneeee!
feeding the leaves plucked from behind us. HAHA.

ELEPHANTS dead!
ELEPHANTTTT!
CUTE RIGHT!
ORANG UTAN! they look like puppets!the PI GU OF THE POLAR BEAR! =D

BEAR BEAR
i love its PAWS!
SO BIGGG.
FLAMINGO! (apple,does this remind u of someone??)
day end at zoo! supposed to go eating with mr busy but! sad! never! haha. he thought i this, and i thought he that. so ya. lol. end up he alone at home when his mum and bro went to eat without him. HAHA.

I HAD SO MUCH FUN ON MY BIRTHDAYYYYY i love my 20th birthday! thanks to EVERYONE! can i not mention names? cos i im afraid of missing out anyone.. HAHA. but big heartly thanks to all! =D loves u all~

2008-06-26T11:10:00.008+08:00

21st June 2008 - celebration of me and ALAN's birthday @ GRAND COPTHORNE hotel, next to ZOUK! =D one night = $400. !!
the lobby..
there are so many levels! and u have to insert ur hotel room card in order to take the lift..
the very nice view from our 22nd storey room..
pigs. me and APPLE.
i think she is drunk. HAHA.
now all of us are drunk.....

me and JASON..
my camera is so polluted with their photos.
toilet!
the decorations!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!
ANDON and me~
still have to cut together..
all of us!back row:(left to right)KANE, LEE, APPLE, CHAM.

center row:(left to right)JASON, QIUHUI, ANDON, EILEEN.

FRONT VIP ROW:(left/right=same)JOANNE LIM.

APU and TENGY.blue roses from nelson! thanks! =)

DIOR addict 2 from FISH! =DD thankewwww!
LASTLY, the S.E w890i from the PS team!

APPLE, EILEEN, ANDON, CHAM, LEE, JOANNE, JASON, IVY, WANG LI, TAO. thankkkk yooouuuu! ^^ TADAH!!!!
cake from my family!

BROTHER, me and MOTHER.. anyway i find that no one in my family can get a good photo shoot. lol. (BRO's eyes closed)
FATHER, me and MOTHER. (dunno why there is so MUCH space on the right side.)
blowing off the prank candles and it makes them happy. haha. (I LOOK LIKE A PUFFER FISH)
my FATHER feeding me with the bread on cake. haha.

2008-06-20T03:30:00.002+08:00

this is me in studio! taking a FEW very quick shots in the control room before LAOSHI comes in. HAHA. =x me and ANDON!
LEO and i.. damn. i already tried to tip toe! XD
we went to studio six after that~ APU and ANDON!

TENGY and me!
TENGY, APU and me!
TENGY, ANDON and me! APU, me and ANDON!

TENGY pooling~ APU pooling~

tats all! tataz!

2008-06-20T01:46:00.004+08:00

replies to TAGBOARD:

@lai: my hair now is... after the purple colour dropped off, it became slightly grey? ash? dunno wad kinda colour is that.. HAHA. and.. i where got thin.. its the angle of the photo taken dat seems like it. HAHAHA. =x
@lovelove: ass u.. u are always MIA anyway! hahahah. no difference!! xD
@mmhan: thanks! yeap. =))
@yap: well..... you dun have to remind me!!!! its okie!! im still younger than you!! HAHAHA.
@faith: haha. thanks.. but u are? =x
@cy: huh? 3rd person? first 2 person is who??? lol.
@adria: ahahhaha. soon ur turn will come! wait awhile more!! =D
@azlan: hahaha. sure! =D

i have nothing else to blog today.. maybe just the sentence that ive placed in my msn.. 喜欢一个人好累.. haha. anyway.. here is a really amazing little young girl.. god.. her voice is so nice..! marvellous.

2008-06-18T02:47:00.003+08:00

guess what.. i totally have not much excitment over the fact that my day is coming.. haha. and it just occured to me that sat is just 2 days away.. hmm. how fast. isit really june already??? haha. alright.. alright. anyway. ive finally.. after 1 and a half year, i went for my FIRST practical lesson for driving yesterday! and man. its really scary! im so nervous at first. haha. the lessons are really expensive! but! i enjoyed myself! its so fun! i cant wait to get my licence. HAHA. =x i want to drive my friends out to all places in sg to play! for now, i can only sit on the passenger seat! T.T but no one wants to drive me out to play... T.T hahaha.

so many things to do.. so little time.. and no energy.. and brains to think.. =x

i have been telling myself ya its just friend, a very good friend that im treating you as.. gdi. i noe things arent that simple as i tot it was. i noe my mind isnt cleared of it all. and i noe this isnt any much different from year 2. i wanted very much to run away. to be so transparent. so normal. that nobody would even care. each time i hear your voice, i smiled. cos its like a one in a 645234162342 chance that i would ever receive that. thank you for once making a difference in my life. and i would have never forgotten all of the memories in the past years, and even now. believe it or not, everyone would agree with me, u are the only person ive treated so nice. haha. =x if u believe it. sat, the last day dat i would smile infront of you. =))

2008-06-18T02:17:00.003+08:00

Presenting to you....... my LOVELY snapsnap! xD canon ixus 80 is! plus the camera kit! roar~ =DD
=DDDDDDDD LOVES. =DDDDDDD
next! one of my MOTTED babies! =DD did i mention? my MOTTED finally gave birth! yes they have no fixed names. basically i call them anything that comes to my mind. HAHA. cute lil babiessss. =DD
and.. TENGY's 8 baby GERBILS! all black.... AGAIN! hahaha! =x and the mother is... ... the white one u see.. if u can find it. HAHA.
i want to get this top and bottom! ESPRIT here i come! i swear i will get you. HAHAHA.
i think im getting crazy about photos recently. but i dun think i look nice in any. =( bad face month. haha.

2008-06-17T11:14:00.003+08:00

why do i look so weird here??? hmmm.

JOANNE..
TENGY..
APU, JOANNE, ANDON..
APU &&&&& JOANNEEEE..
WILD && CRAZY APU. HAHAHA. look at JOANNE.
haha. how kuku. XD

by ANDON.
notice anything??
more photos coming up! HAHA. =DD

2008-06-17T02:06:00.005+08:00

SHUPING (pang/sotong/sleepyhead) and my BIRTHDAY Celebration!

okay.. ESSENTIAL BREW @ HV!
with my SPONGEBOBBBB (supposed to be PANG's!) ballooOOOooOoonn! =D
with her (supposed to be mine!) PATRICK baAaaallllooOooooOnnn!
us with the ICE CREAMMMMM cakeS.. xD (gdi, the 2 big candles make us look so old...)
JIA wanted me to pose like that.. she says this POSE is nice..
the signature pose! of hers.. of cus. x)
HAHAHAHA! i like this! what weird expressions we have! XD
this is what the 2 tiny girls do.. LOL.
OKAY OKAY!! i know! er xin rite! ~~i think it looks nice though.. XD~~
SPONGEBOB is my TWIN! HAHAHA. we share the same expression.. except for the face shape. XD
LANG, PANG, JIA! ^^

i told you its her signature pose!! SEE!!
and i think this is my signature pose. HAHA! GOLDFISH! with sore eyes. XD
TOILET with LOVE! HAHAHA!
NICO's blur expression. HAHAHA. fun.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! =D

THE END! special thanks to : AMEE, JIA, NICA, PANG, LANG for the wonderful night out! i enjoyed myself! just so too bad that the place i wanted to go is no longer there! if not it will be even more more more FUN! haha. thanks for all the preparation, the dinner, the cake, the balloon, the fun, the laughter, the everything! and... not forgetting... my present! before i go on, special special thanks to.......

AMEE, JIA, NICA, PANG, LANG, FISH, SHERMIAN, MARK, BALL, DERRICK, CEED, FELIX, CY, WAN, LAI, JEAN, BOBO, NUT, TERRY, TC, CANDY and STEPH, (i didnt miss out anyone did i?) for the CANON IXUS 80 IS.. i seriously got so shock over this present i dont even know what to say.. and yes. its PINK in colour. just like XIAXUE's! loves! =)) thank you guys.. from the bottom of my heart.. xD

2008-06-12T03:28:00.002+08:00

ok first things first.. i went to the sentosa 4d magix with my couzies the other day! on a saturday~ haha. dumb to actually go on a saturday i noe.. ahha. but it dint occur to me at that point of time. but anyway, theres alot of ppl.. so queued for quite some time before its really our turn to go in. but. we have to wait again when we get in. i enjoyed myself during the show. cos its really 4d. HAHA. we can feel the windy sea breeze, the various sudden jerks of the chair, the strong 'wind' hissing out of the chair behind our heads, making our hair messy. -.- haha. den the dunno wad thing is it behind our feet and hit our legs when some animals run across on the screen or something like dat. den the REALLY rain water splashing on us when the pirate drop into the sea. haha. although its short but its fun. so many ppl screamed and some young children even cried so loudly. haha. after tat we went arnd and take photos and actually its alr quite late. so we went to this particular fast food restaurant to eat the fish meal.. fried ones. not mentioning where isit, cos it isnt tat nice to say la. haha. but i mus really say. i found this long long strand of hair on my fish. and. guess wad. its not those kind of hair where u can jus take it off and throw it away. when i pull it away, my whole fish followed along. so. basicaly its FRIED together INTO the fish. wtf rite. hahaha. its damn disgusting la. and they got me a new set. but it turns me off man. imagine the hygiene.. hmm. i wonder. den after dat we went to walk arnd and den head back to jp.. caught the show KUNGFU PANDA! hahaah. its really really nice! i like it. cos it really made me laugh~ ahaha. kudos to the animators! haha. loves. and den home sweet home. =) enjoyed the outing. steffi, sebas, nana, chrismeen, alicson, alex, zhijie, zhiwei. =)

next! ive got purpleeee hair~ although new and fresh colour, but! okie.. ya.. nvm. i zip my mouth. quit complaining better. haha. ARHHH!!! cant stand. =(( that golden colour one is the colour after i bleach my hair. = /

skip that topic cos its so sian. haha. anyway. went to apply for my PDL today with apple and alan. booked my very first practical class alr. but cos i cant make it tml den my practical will be on the 27th or so. hai. damn sian la. so long.. since i pass btt until now. still mus wait! sighs. i think im really slow lor. but.. nvm. haha. going for practical class alone! excited also. i will try and see everyday if there is slot on the next day den i go alr.. haha. hopefully there is..

and anyway.. i did something i dunno if its right! by giving my fren the blog address, i actually made him pissed off.. at that person and not me of cus.. but its really so surprising that we can talk so much. hmm. so much rubbish yet enjoyable. feel free to call me anytime yeah, ugly and fat person. HAHAHAHA. =x but u dun even noe why u call me. hahaha. which i hear le i wan to laugh. HAHA. and its the first time i find myself talking to fluently in english to you. HAHA. claps.

BIG BIG DAY COMING! hahahaha! =x

2008-06-12T03:07:00.003+08:00

okie this is the photos! so next entry will be words~ haha~ =)

2008-06-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

i miss arcade! im not an ah lian like those secondary school days alr alright.. haha. taking clothes to school, after school go change into home clothes den go into arcade play.. lol. hmm. why this sounds so familiar. ok anyway. ya. and the only arcade i enjoyed playing in is the jurong entertainment one. the few machines that we will always play.. haha. basketball, pop 'n' music, ddr, shanghai, wordhunt, photo memory, drum and sometimes all the others too! haha.

so... today! we went after so long! ahah. it makes me happy. really. haha. so long so long. ahhh. next entry shall be the recap and photos of the arcade. hah. if i go and take it la. haha. =p

2008-06-01T03:43:00.005+08:00

oh man. its nearing 4am! and im still online. ok i admit im really tired alr! but i wanto blog one entry before i go and sleeeep! haha. firstly, WE GRADUATED LOH!!! hahaha. i feeel so high out of sudden. but seriously speaking, i was not high at all on graduation day~ haha. maybe its cos in the first place i dint even felt like going. hahaha. =x i mean i did felt like going first. but. after that i dun feel like. cos of some reasons, and den. out of sudden. i decide to go again.. haha. anyway. graduation day was fun. cos we get to see so many of our frens. all in the same kind of dress code, plus the robe! the big, thick, bulky, smelly, not so nice robe! hahaha. im like perspiring like some tap water running can! HAHAHA. its really hot! okie.. my experience when walking on stage towards the scroll box presenter is one word, nervous. haha. but. i did not felt happy cos i got it. in fact, i felt a little sad. cos. i regret not asking my mum & dad to come!! damn.

me: u wan to come for my graduation ceremony tml?
mum: wad time?
me: 4 plus mus settle down inside and den 5 plus den start.
mum: ..
me: aiya. nvm. i think u dun go better. cos waste time la.
mum: ..?
me: really! dun go dun go. have to sit there wait so long.. den wait le see me go up take cert only.. also nothing one la.
mum: u asked me if i wan to go and now u ask me not to go.. so u wan me to go or not to go..
me: dun go dun go..
mum: *mumbles somethings..*

soon after graduation ceremony, i went to bugis with ama nico and langgg. ate ljs our all time favourite! and den went shopping in street! haah. but alot of shops closed alr. cos its nearing 10pm. and den! they left for home and i went to meet fishhhyy and gang at vivo~ meanwhile.. i sms-ed my mum and told her i regret not asking her to go. cos the feeling of going on stage and collecting the cert, knowing that someone out there is smiling and is happy for u tat u have graduated, is really great.. but i missed the only chance. haha. well well. nvm.. its over.. =) and oh! before i continue with fish, i wanted to say something.. haha. i guess maybe from now on, i can wear formal wear out..! ahahhaha. =x white top, a long black pants and a pair of heels.. with hair that looks okie, and a little make up on. hahaha. "u wear like tt nice leh.haha." thanks my fren! and im really going to go for exercises. ahahaha. weekends maybe? or days where i will be working afternoon shift, morning can go for a swim~ haha. =x alrite alrite..

me and xuejia outside convention centre before ceremony.the GIRLS! with the robe and the scroll box!(with no cert inside) haha.GIRLS with Ms Jennifer Ang!LOOK! ITS JONATHAN! haha. this is the FIRST time ive heard him say so much. and in that accent of english. way to go jonathan! he's one genius. really. haha.

back to fish~ met up with them i vivo alr, me, fish, SQ, shawn, CX, Jonathan & gf, Jin, Ballball went to SMU de campus pub there.. thanks to the guys for bringing us there! but it closes in 30 minutes time when we reach. hahaha. but still, we ordered alcoholic drinks. stella dunno wad. haha. its kinda nice also. den we played 'cai quan' and whoever loses have to finish their cup lo. the ending 2 winners are fish and SQ. but SQ lost in the very final round. haha. fish went off with male fish after tat and the rest of us went to eat our supper~ half way through. my slippers broke. haha. how wonderful. so basically i walk bare footed on ROADS. yes ROADS. haha. went home and zzz.

tengy came back from germany alr! haha. and the stress is immediately decreased by 70%! hahaha. =x anyway yeah yeah yeah~ birken birken! =DD lalalal. let pictures do the talk. haha. =p thanks tengy for helping me buy! and thanks for the top u gave! (ps. sometimes this is how you see the true colours.. HAHA. =x)

BRIGHTTTTT GREEEEEEN!!!!

shut up and get lost. hahaha.dun i look like a goldfish? HAHA. damn funny.

and! i dunno why recently ive been into so many accidents. argh. angry angry. can food drop from the shelf and hit my arm bone. such a big blue black mark on my arm now. den.. i tend to kick onto something everytime! tmd! and i dun have the tendency to wear shoe in shop! cant stand it. and.. i requested to work morning shift in exchange with eileen today. and den.. stocks came in the morning.. den i was climbing up on a LOW QUALITY, UGLY, FAT, IDIOTIC, PLASTIC STOOL to pack up some things. and then. i stood on the edge of the jinx thingy and i fell. normally ppl jus fall down from chair, shldnt be a problem rite? i dunno whether isit i old alr or something. i hurt my foot and its cut, and swollen. lol. how wonderful......... ya rite. it hurts like hell man.. i hate things that has got to do with my legs, and also my ears.

look at my pig leg. cant really see the swollen-ness of it here..my master piece years years back.. =DD

okie! this is such a long long post! and its really getting late! ending this post at.. 4.45am! gooodbye ppl~ im off to sleeep!

and boy! i miss u.

2008-05-28T02:19:00.004+08:00

before i begin my entry, photos time! =DD
dont you guys find this familiar! its a baby snack! and i love it! =DD baby gerbil! you wouldnt want to know the name.. cos its not creative too. HAHA.
gerbil MOTHER. zZz..
i SOOOOO regret not getting this top too la! ROAR. its gone! AHH!!! but nvm. i look so fat anyway. =x
sooooo cute.. haha.

i've just edited my blog again! now seriously i feel very worn out today! i think its because of the constant writing of stocks and so on. walked here and there here and there everwhere. sometimes its good to keep yourself busy. cos at the end of the day, you get 'rewarded' somehow. it still surprises me and makes me smile. however dumb it is. yup.

and oh! im a happy girl today at work because i saw my favourite dog breed! WESTIE! god. this westie is just sooooooo cute i feel like hugging it! and this made me feel like having a westie now! yes! NOW. haha. but fret not. i still love my baobei dogs. the weirdo,but full of emotions, and yet cute ET, short legs but sweet and charming puipui, and the long legs and pretty pocky! hahs.

and!! tomorrow is School of Media And Info-Communications Technology de graduation ceremony le! seriously im NOT excited at all. at least till now.. because i've already thought of not going like weeks ago.. and then.. 2 or 3 days ago, i decided to go again. and i even went to bought my attire for the ceremony basically because...... i forgot lee wont be coming back before 28th. and i lent my attire to her. HAHA. how clever of me. and i have got no covered shoes that are black or dark colured. so.. end up.. all buy.. lucky thing is! now is the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!!!! so its all kinda cheap. hah.

talking about GSS, im so excited and tempted to get so much things! just that i need to wait for my money! haha! come on! its the time of the year people.. get up and head down to town! haha. DO NOT start saving money now! get it now or regret later. haha. please dont save your money now and then buy the things after GSS. you know why... =DD

ive so much energy and am so hyper! im looking forward to partying! haha. and june is coming!! wee~ hahaha. =p

and before i go.. special sorry to tengy and andon~ for getting my sickness.. = / take care and get well soon.. =/

2008-05-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

i don't know why do i feel so tired. both mentally and physically. i am supposed to feel carefree and happy. but somehow. i did not. it's not because of the separation. but because of something else. i hate myself for doing or feeling what actually happened a year ago. the craziness was over. thank god i got over it at that time. and. can anyone tell me why does it come back again now? and repeat whatever had happened back then? i just want to be a very good friend. your confidant. nothing else. it will be more than enough already. but anyway i guess this won't happen at all because it's just so not meant to be. just so to let you know that no matter what, anytime, anywhere, when your world turns into darkness, i will still be there. but i strongly believe that you world will always be bright. =) take care my friend. =))

and to all my friends out there, my loves.. do not worry about a thing for there will always be brightness in your life.. you know why? because.. with me around, there is always light. HAHA. =x

and! to AMA + gang & CY + gang! when is the chalet huh! i've been waiting till my hair all turn white, teeth all drop, skin all crumpled, eye bags all saggy, ear lops long long, eyes half closed, back 90 degrees hunched, finger nails kp short, bones all protruding! (HAHA.) are we going to have an old ladies party? lol.

alrights. anyway. its been really so long.. since.. err. last monday? i've been sick since then! it is already ONE WEEK! i miss singing sooooooooooo much! ROAR!

i went to fish's 'aquarium' to stay yesterday.. before that we caught the show, made of honour. man. its such a niceeeee show.. aww. i love it. we decided to watch this show on a last minute basis. becasue.. the tickets were bought at 9.45pm when the show is at 10.05pm. hah. and anyway the stayover was nice as it's been soooo long since i stayed over at a friend's house.. and the feeling is so relaxed and warm. haha! (p.s we slept together on the same bed! HAHA. okie.. sounds so wrong.) and ama! when is ur turn coming?? HAHA.

ive missed the charity show yesterday night.. but i heard from andon that it's very sad.. sighs. and my hp couldnt make any 1900 phone calls. damn it. luckily i can still call at home.. = / seriously i feel so sad for those people who lost their live in this earth quake.. and ifeel even more sad for the thousands of children who lost their family.. we really could not feel what they feel and they have to go through such things when they are still in a young age.. and to think that some china people who is currently in singapore can still be saying things that are so heartless. i mean. they are all from the same country.. don't they feel sad at all? and to those people in china, do not give up hope.. jiayou.. live strong..

give me one reason. just one reason. to forget.

2008-05-21T01:05:00.002+08:00

weee~ i changed my blog skin lohh. (okie.. i have no sense of design and i have no idea of my own and i also have no creativity..) thats y i found this nice skin online. haha. i guess alot of ppl must be using this but no doubt it really is nice. haha.

okay anyway tml is alr the studio lesson and im not yet okie! darn! i hope tml wont be tat bad for me.. T.T there feels like something stucked in my throat but i cant get it out. and my throat feels so dry all the time. i wonder how am i going to survive in studio tml.. rawrrrrr.

i so wanna get myself a digital camera now! hahaha. sudden urge. but there is so much things i need to get! damn it. new havaianas brazil or something too. haha. some good friend of mine who says im a spendthrift asks me if i wan to get it.. haha. and anyway i wanted to get a new one long ago. =x i love having so many casual foot wears! but i cant find a proper foot wear. haha. and oh! i want a pair of birken too. just looking for a nice design dat i will fall in love with immediately. haha. so many things i wan. so little money! dats y i wanna work work work~ =DD

anyway. tengy and lee flewwww to GERMANY loh~~ wish them yi lu shun feng! =))

2008-05-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

i think i have this weird fetish for notebooks. cute, cool and preeetty notebooks! =D i bought 2 again! i know its a waste of money.. but its nice! at least to me? =)) one has a special use, which i hope i will really do it.. the other is for keeping! yeap.

these few days are all late late nights for me.. not exactly late.. just that its bound to be after 12am.. thats all. and i seriously find that even though just hanging out and doing nothing, its rather fun because no matter what im still enjoying myself with the people i love! okok.. i know this sounds so weird.. haha. anyway i went to eat with fish and male fish just now.. over at jalan kayu area..(is it spelt like that?) its said that the pratas there are nice.. and i noticed.. why are all supper food choice pratas?! haha. but i admit it. its kinda nice.. especially the ice cream prata.

i want to get myself a camera! there's so much things i wannna do and i wanna shoot it all down. i shld start saving money and maybe months later i will be able to get one.. yeap yeap.. there is so much things i need to do and ive yet done it..

-pay my phone bill
-sher's rayman rabbit game
-uob card
-GET BETTER! studio is coming again.....
-schedule planner 2008
-proper foot wear
-pack my room
-alot of places!

oh man... sighs..

2008-05-16T01:52:00.005+08:00

oh yah! i passed my BTT!! hahaha. i noe this isnt something to be so happy abt, but having waited sooooo long and booking and cancelling of lessons and tests, finally i took the test and i passed. wahahaha. im so looking forward to the next theory paper. alhtough it seems to me like its sooo hard. i hope i can speed thru this things! and i need to renew my bbdc thingy alr. waste money ah! XD and to all i noe who are in the process of these theory papers.. apple andon joanne fish steffi.. jiayou ah! haha.

i enjoyed my evening tonight. simple. and short, but i really enjoyed it. thanks for making me smile.. =)) and. i felt it. happiness.

us @ double C.. drunkards! haha. days back!
arent they cute?? so sweet.. =Dgerbil baby! =D cute!the cat under my block!

harold & kumar 2! the reason i smiled. PASSED! =DDDDD
laoshi concert day~
this is wad i do when i have not slept in the middle of the night.
look at ET. haha.
just a lot of random photos at one go. yeah. its time to change a blog skin! lalala. =D

2008-05-15T11:10:00.002+08:00

woots! today is the first day of cpps opening at 10am! and i just dunno why i can wake up so early. guess wad. i woke up at 7 plus. without any alarm clocks or anyone calling me. its jus like i closed my eye for this while and when i open my eye its alr 7 plus. and! i dun feel tired at all. haha. i even spoke to my mum till 8 plus before i go and bath. guess tengy really worried i will late especially today is the first day. some more so early. called me at 8am and was received by my ENERGETIC(and im really energetic one k.) voice. hahaha. i reached here at 9.28am. darn. so early. and i saw the SURPRISE that 2 pig head left for me. THANKS AH.. it scared me. early in the morning. hahah.

and anyway. mediacorp called me again today. asking me to go for yet another interview. this time round its assistant admin executive if im not wrong? haha. to liase with publishing company, assist in dunno wad and some other alot of misc stuff. but i kind of rejected this. again. maybe i shld be in for something im interested in instead. and anyway. i dun recall myself applying for this position.

went for laoshi's concert a few days back.. 10th may. it was a long long concert.. haha. i was fascinated by laoshi's performance on stage.. his stage presentation and communication skills. haha. although laoshi dint sing much, it was a rather fun night except for a few parts of the concert which even laoshi agreed it was a little... ya. haha. all in all, its great. =)

hmm. jus a few days and things happen so fast and ya. sighs. 13th may. although it happened again, jus like the first time round. maybe this is all jus not meant to be. seriously, im not good enough for you too. and i really dunno how to balance things well. so its best things turn out this way too.. and guess u're sick of it too. given dat im not the one who initiated it. although it hurts, cos the outcome is horrifying and.. unexpected. anyway. i seriously wish u all the best in the future.. take care.

and anyway. due to the weather and my damn bloody sensitive nose, i am having flu alrrrr.... sadddd. haha.

2008-05-12T02:32:00.002+08:00

its sad to know how things changed.. where is all the fun and laughter that used to be arnd? hai. seems like everyone is busy with their things and maybe its really time for a change.. life is sooOoOOO SoooOOooo boring. work work work play play play. i need something to spice up my life. an interesting job? an interesting fren? or even an interesting place? haha. recently i chanced upon underwater world's website.. and foudn out that they need to employ ppl. hmmmmmmmm. wahahaha. =x

think think think.

2008-05-09T17:04:00.004+08:00

was looking through the website fish surfed.. and i decided maybe i can learn from her.. hmmm. regarding? i will announce on monday. haha. anyway i saw a few bouquets of flowers dat are so niceeee. ahah.

recently found a few kittens under my block too! but kept by the malay family downstairs.. apu, tengy, commando and me. haha. even fed it wellness pouch food lor! photos later! haha.

different.. so different..